• Csab123 posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    Yep.. exactly the same thoughts. That’s what addiction is. The hardest part for me is trying to replace the gambling with something else I enjoy. Nothing comes close to the rush I get when I win… but the depression I get when I lose is Much more frequent. It’s made worse with online gambling since it’s right there on my phone and I don’t have to l…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    Thank you! That’s a really smart idea. I’ve been really isolating myself because I’m so depressed over what I’ve done . I’m going to try your method. Thanks again.

  • Csab123 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 weeks, 1 days ago

    Really devastated. Just sold precious jewelry that was handed down to me. I’m a mess! What have I done!! I can’t tell anyone and it’s eating me up. My debts are outrageous I don’t see hope or light. Has anyone gotten out of the financial mess they caused? I am dying inside:(

    • Csab123, the only way out of this mess we get ourselves into is hard work and I also put a certain portion of my salary into my parent’s account to limit my access to cash, and if I did not have that to fall back on, my relapse would have been even more devastating. Hope this little piece of advice helps, but that is the only way I was able to get…[Read more]

      • Thank you! That’s a really smart idea. I’ve been really isolating myself because I’m so depressed over what I’ve done . I’m going to try your method. Thanks again.

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 4 weeks, 1 days ago

    How did you figure that out? Is this something from your taxes or you just calculate it?

  • Csab123 posted an update 4 weeks, 1 days ago

    I’m in a bad place and I can’t seem to get out. I don’t see a way out of the financial damage and the amount of debt I have. I spoke to a bankruptcy lawyer but since we still have some equity in our house bankruptcy wouldn’t work. I have ruined my credit score and my husbands and started on my daughter’s. How disgusting is that! It’s horrific to…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 4 weeks, 1 days ago

    Hope you are ok.. feeling the same way:(

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 4 weeks, 1 days ago

    Same thing with me.. it’s 2am and I can’t stop thinking about the money I won then lost just 12 hours ago . That money would have let me pay my mortgage and now I put that plus double in. Over 2 grand.. I’m so sick I just want to throw up. You’re not alone. I don’t know how I’ll ever repay all the financial damage I’ve done. Good luck to you a…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 1 months, 2 weeks ago

    I could have written your post and I’m exactly in the position . I’ve lost thousands this week after winning big. Like you said I cannot stop until it’s all gone. I keep that shred of hope alive when I know from the past the casino always wins if you don’t walk away. The past two weeks have set us back financially so bad I feel like I’m in a nigh…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 1 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thank you everyone for all the support . It means the world to me right now. Dan you are right. I can’t undo it .

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 1 months, 3 weeks ago

    Yes I’m chasing my losses and going deeper in a hole. I keep thinking of the money that I owe my daughter and how I will ever pay it back. Now we have no money in our bank account and I gambled our mortgage money away. I cannot believe I did that AGAIN! We don’t have any savings left, I destroyed us financially. I can’t even claim bankr…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 1 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thank you for your thoughtful reply. I know you are so right. I just keep thinking what’s going to happen when the bills and mortgage come in and the money is gone . I so appreciate all the feedback.. this is a lonely place . I keep thinking that no one in their right mind would throw away this much money in one night, especially someone living p…[Read more]

    • 1st your not alone. It’s a shitty place to be. I’m only sharing my experiences and what I’ve learned in order for me to survive. I want more for you eventually but it’s important for you to survive right now. You can start on fixing the shit later. For you and your family

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 1 months, 3 weeks ago

    Literally what I did! I always need to keep going for more! I’m so damn mad at myself it’s unreal! I shouldn’t be surprised but I am , I’m surprised I’m this damn thick headed and stupid! I’m ruining my life and everyone around me including my kids. It’s horrible.
    I’m so
    Sorry you are dealing with the same. I don’t want anyone to feel this low ..…[Read more]

    • I unfortunately know this experience all to well.. I’ve been dealing with a gambling addiction for decades. Here is what I have learned. The situation you are in can’t be changed right now. It happened and no amount of stress and beating yourself will change it. In order to start to go in a positive direction and heal from this you have to get som…[Read more]

      • Thank you for your thoughtful reply. I know you are so right. I just keep thinking what’s going to happen when the bills and mortgage come in and the money is gone . I so appreciate all the feedback.. this is a lonely place . I keep thinking that no one in their right mind would throw away this much money in one night, especially someone living p…[Read more]

        • 1st your not alone. It’s a shitty place to be. I’m only sharing my experiences and what I’ve learned in order for me to survive. I want more for you eventually but it’s important for you to survive right now. You can start on fixing the shit later. For you and your family

  • Csab123 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 1 months, 3 weeks ago

    Not a wink of sleep.. I feel like I’m losing my mind as well as my money and everyone else’s. I can’t believe I did it again!! I swore I wouldn’t gamble again and yesterday I lost 2 grand then lost another grand trying to get it back on online casinos.
    That was all the money in the account and maxed out credit cards. Is there any way to get thr…[Read more]

    • I understand. Im in exactly the same boat. Hadnt played in a while then gave in won lots and lost it all again with more. I feel so angry at myself no words can explain.

      • Literally what I did! I always need to keep going for more! I’m so damn mad at myself it’s unreal! I shouldn’t be surprised but I am , I’m surprised I’m this damn thick headed and stupid! I’m ruining my life and everyone around me including my kids. It’s horrible.
        I’m so
        Sorry you are dealing with the same. I don’t want anyone to feel this low ..…[Read more]

        • I unfortunately know this experience all to well.. I’ve been dealing with a gambling addiction for decades. Here is what I have learned. The situation you are in can’t be changed right now. It happened and no amount of stress and beating yourself will change it. In order to start to go in a positive direction and heal from this you have to get som…[Read more]

          • Thank you for your thoughtful reply. I know you are so right. I just keep thinking what’s going to happen when the bills and mortgage come in and the money is gone . I so appreciate all the feedback.. this is a lonely place . I keep thinking that no one in their right mind would throw away this much money in one night, especially someone living p…[Read more]

            • 1st your not alone. It’s a shitty place to be. I’m only sharing my experiences and what I’ve learned in order for me to survive. I want more for you eventually but it’s important for you to survive right now. You can start on fixing the shit later. For you and your family

    • There is a way out. I was exactly the same about few months ago, and it started about 3 years ago. Today it’s not completely over but I am able to keep myself away from this. If I ever play, I also am not able to leave before losing everything, but that’s only half of the time now. For me the key is to never start and I am able to do that.…[Read more]

      • Very wise advice Tracie 👍

      • Yes I’m chasing my losses and going deeper in a hole. I keep thinking of the money that I owe my daughter and how I will ever pay it back. Now we have no money in our bank account and I gambled our mortgage money away. I cannot believe I did that AGAIN! We don’t have any savings left, I destroyed us financially. I can’t even claim bankr…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 1 months, 3 weeks ago

    You are smart to stop👍🏻

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 1 months, 3 weeks ago

    You’re not alone.. I swore I was stopping. Promised my family and this week I’ve lost so much money . Was up all night trying to win it back and I only lost more. I’m in Hell and I don’t know how to get out:( I’ve borrowed from everyone and took a cash advance on all my credit cards plus my husbands . How will this get paid back, I’ll never know.…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 1 months, 3 weeks ago

    I have just lost 3000 that I didn’t have. I’m so upset and just want to stop! I have no way to pay all my debt back. I literally didn’t sleep all night! It’s 5:15 am and I’ve been up over 24 hours. 24 hours of playing online casino and stressing and praying to win my money back. I am digging my hole so deep there’s no getting out😢

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    The online gambling is what has destroyed me as well. I do it everyday… I know how you feel. It’s so distressing and an at the point that I’ve had to let my credit cards default because I need to pay the mortgage and have spent all the money we had. If you want to chat ever feel free to message me and I wish you the best of luck and your recovery.

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    Tina I feel just like you! My husband and kids work so hard and I just flush all their hard work down the toilette for a little rush and even smaller chance I’ll win anything back. I could’ve put my kid through college with the amount I’ve lost and every week I’m borrowing from Peter to pay Paul. When I think of what I’ve done I can’t believe it.…[Read more]

    • I just don’t understand why there is such a craving inside of me that wants to go and knock my self down I know that nothing will come out good going to casino it doesn’t matter how much 8 win cause I’m leaving with nothing…I have no one to explain anything to about my finances i don’t know if thats a good thing or not ? I usually get my…[Read more]

      • Urges can be tough. I e stayed away for a couple of months now. And today this evening. I keep having urges to gamble. I keep putting myself in check. Luckily I’ve banded myself closed my accounts online. And I haven’t been to a live casino in years.
        The fact that I have placed check stops in the way of gambling is really helping. I’m not exclu…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 9 months, 1 weeks ago

    Hi everyone … since I last posted things were going ok until we got a paper from the IRS stating I owed 145k$ from PayPal deposits . My husband is threatening to divorce me and im literally sick to death. These are not winnings it’s just recycled money . PayPal has a page of transactions to reconcile your account and it’s all my gambling trans…[Read more]

    • Hi Csab
      I suggest you find a tax lawyer and as for ending it something I learned when I was considering ending is
      that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
      God Bless & Stay Strong
      Ken L YBIR

      • I used to do taxes, and they make a mistake in the automated system. Any good tax preparer can get it sorted out for you. Unless you made a bunch of money you likely owe nothing.

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    Sounds familiar 😥

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