Activity – Jed

Jed posted an update in the group Community 4 weeks ago

Hi, just lost a lot of money and I just want to share because i do not know who else to talk to. I played online casino. I lost then won then lost then won then lost until i emptied everything. This is very sad for me because i do not know how to tell my fiance and family. I am sick and I hope this time would be my last. I’m a degenerate gambler and I noticed i can only stop once i emptied everything. I dont get it.
- Maximus replied 4 weeks ago
  
  Hey there Jed. I’ve been there myself multiple times in the past and it sucks! Winning is never a long term thing and eventually I always lost any kind of “winnings”. The online casino is so much worse (in my opinion) because you cannot physically see your money in your hands, which makes it incredibly easy to bet enormous sums of money in one sitting. I kept everything from my family until they eventually found out and it takes a weight off your shoulders. No more secrecy, hiding and lying feels so good. It is incredibly hard to admit that we have a problem and that’s why it is always the first step that is the hardest. Keep your head up and try to resist any temptation that may come your way, which is easier said than done. Believe in yourself, you’ve got this!
  - Jed replied 4 weeks ago
    
    Thank you maximus. This means a lot. I plan on telling my family, but maybe when I feel more of myself. This is not the first time and I hope they’d still accept me.
    - Csab123 replied 3 weeks, 4 days ago
      
      I could have written your post and I’m exactly in the position . I’ve lost thousands this week after winning big. Like you said I cannot stop until it’s all gone. I keep that shred of hope alive when I know from the past the casino always wins if you don’t walk away. The past two weeks have set us back financially so bad I feel like I’m in a nightmare. Like you the online casino is my Hell!
      Just know you’re not alone and at this moment there’s another degenerate gambler dealing with the same thing.
  - Bigheart4 replied 4 weeks ago
    
    Jed when I lost everything , I also keep saying I’m going to stop. It never happens. We have an addiction. I’ve been trying to stop for the past 28 years. My last 3 years have been a nightmare. Only way I’m looking to quit for ever is I been looking how other people live a normal happy life, and I just got a new grand child. I’m going to quit now before I’m in my fifties and I don’t want to look back and think that I have nothing to show for in my life since I’m a very hard worker and run my own business. The past is the last let’s move on.
- tommyt replied 3 weeks, 5 days ago
  
  Sorry you are struggling the way you are right now. I know it is hard but you’re really going to have come clean with those close to you because it’s a really important step in starting to recover. If you’re not held accountable by someone than you will almost surely find your way back to the same losses, guilt , and shame. It is a carrousel really hard to get off alone. You really have to be transparent with yourself and the people who really care about you. It’s not easy, but there will be a weight lifted off you, and it is actually easier than just being a good liar. No offense, but all problem gamblers are fantastic liars. Take that first step, and find support. Keep your head up.
  - Jed replied 3 weeks, 3 days ago
    
    Thank you all for the kind words and words of enxouragement.
    
    I’m planning to tell my fiance today what happened as I also believe that this is needed for recovery. This forum has been so helpful. Hope I can return the favor in the future 😊