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I’m in a bad place and I can’t seem to get out. I don’t see a way out of the financial damage and the amount of debt I have. I spoke to a bankruptcy lawyer but since we still have some equity in our house bankruptcy wouldn’t work. I have ruined my credit score and my husbands and started on my daughter’s. How disgusting is that! It’s horrific to think what I’ve done. My intention was always ‘I’ll just win it back and pay it off.. well that NEVER happens because when I win I put it all back plus more. So I’m done. My mortgage was gambled and my husband thinks I’ve stopped and I cannot tell him, he’d walk out on me for sure, and I don’t blame him. The last time I told him and we took out I loan and fixed it. Well big mistake to think I could continue handling the bills because I just said one more time and that turned into using the entire loan plus to gamble. So what can I do? I’m totally at the mercy of God and really hope that there is a God because I have no one else here to confide in.
I have some jewelry that was handed down to me and I will have to sell it tomorrow. It hurts so bad to sell these treasured items. I have no choice, I’ve maxed everything out and borrowed money from anyone I can . My grandmother is turning in her grave.
It’s hard to imagine anyone can be in a lower place 🙁
I will never fall asleep tonight thinking I’ll have to go to the jewelers when they open. I have nothing left to show for my life. It was all given to casinos .
How can I be this dumb!! Education means nothing with addiction! People would never know what I’ve done if they saw me.
My heart is beating out of my chest from anxiety.
Thank you for reading my sob story yet again. I’m truly at Rock Bottom 😓