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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 10 months agoHello everybody it’s been a while since the last time I posted anything on here things have been pretty good but I blew it I really blew it I was doing really really good until last night I don’t know what happened but I ended up at the casino and I spent quite a bit of money no my savings are gone and they’re with my car payment for this month…[Read more]
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 12 months agoWell, after my embarrassing encounter last weekend I had doubts about posting here anymore. I thought it over very carefully and decided who cares, why take away something that is helping me get better over a childish , self pitying act. In time people will know that wasn’t who I really am. And nobody here or anywhere else are perfect. ” I’ve lost…[Read more]
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoI had a super bad weekend. I was feeling very low, depressed, and had a couple thoughts of suicide. Probably the lowest time ever in my life. I don’t understand why the lowness took me down so hard but I do know now that I will never allow myself to feel that awful again. I took a few days to pull out of it but I’m better now. Actually I’m sorta…[Read more]
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Good job Cpart
Tuff that’s it’s gotta get bad to get good.
One step at a time , one day at a time.
I’m going to be making cheese cake’s tomorrow for my daughter’s bday shower.
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Go Cpart! We’re all pulling for you and I’m so glad to hear that you were able to speak with someone about it. Here if you need someone to talk to when the going gets tough.
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoToday has been one of the lowest days in my life. I have done nothing but cry all day long. My eyes are so red and puffy and swollen and my spirit is crushed. I wish that I could just lay down and close my eyes and never never wake up again. I know it sounds very selfish which even makes me feel worse. I have excluded myself from being around my…[Read more]
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Hi Cpart
I’m sorry you are feeling so frustrated. I think when we leave something even though what we’ve been doing is definitely no good for ourselves. It makes us face ourselves more. Or what we’ve done. It can be and is painful because we know we f-Ed up. Not intentionally ever wanting to hurt anyone including ourselves.
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Cpart.. if it’s any consolation I (and others) have felt a lot of what you’re feeling…. the crying… hating what I was doing… wishing I could just disappear… feeling isolated. For me I felt like a phony. The thought that I had to hide from what I was doing from others. ‘If they only knew’ etc etc. You said ‘addiction’s’ so possibly you’re…[Read more]
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoToday has started out to be not a very good day I guess I need to change my way of thinking and the only way I can do that is probably right here in this little box that I’m texting in I feel lonely depressed sad and lost I should feel better because I’ve only had two slips in a month and not major steps at all I just feel so alone and empty I’m…[Read more]
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Hi ((( Cpart )))
Not sure where you are from but if you send me an email at Ken.lambon@rogers.com and let me know what
part of the world you are from I will try to help you find some support with Gamblers Anonymous and counseling.
9 years ago my family lost our son through depression and believe me you would be missed by your loved ones more
then…[Read more]-
❤️❤️❤️
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Cpart how old are you ? If you don’t mind me asking.
Withdrawal from an addiction can be tuff you know. Moments when a person thinks it’s all okay. Moments when it doesn’t feel okay. I’m really sorry you are feeling pain emotionally. You know your best friend is always going to be you. You do need to like yourself.Everyone wants to be cared f…[Read more]-
I’m 58
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I was 52 years old when I crashed and started counseling and attending GA Meetings
Never thought I could stop but almost 21 years of not placing a bet One Day At A Time.
Hope you will reach out to GA and find some counseling
Ken L YBIR
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoI lost track how many days ago I set my mind on to finally give up gambling. At least more than three weeks ago and from gambling at least 27 days out of the months I have had only one slip up. I feel so much better about myself now. Im beginning to feel like a worthy human being again and I’m actually starting to like myself again. There is still…[Read more]
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Cpart I’m happy you are finding yourself again. Yeah there’s going to be some bumps in the road. That’s a part of life it seems. But now we have some air in our tires to obsorb the shock. ❤️
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Good for you Cpart… yes I found liking myself again hard to do… and you’re right.. Gamtalk is a great place to come and get support… Lindy
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoI have struggled with many obstacles through out my 58 years of life. When I was in grade school I had Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. For a child around 10 years old, I didn’t know what to think and I didn’t understand why I was the way I was. I couldn’t even put into words what I was doing. Tell someone that I had to touch things four times in…[Read more]
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Cpart thank you for sharing a piece of your life Your childhood and how you have overcome obstacles. You are a person of this world much love ❤️
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You should be so very proud ‘in a good way’ of all you’ve faced and yet you keep working at conquering them… Your enthusiasm is great… take care .. Lindy
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoHi everyone. Well I have only messed up once with spending money gambling since March 23rd. I feel so good that I finally hit that point and woke up! Thank you Lord! Such a relief and a better piece of mind now I actually think about other things now instead of being consumed with gamble gamble gamble on the brain. I can actually get in my car…[Read more]
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Wow Cpart you are a really good writer so expressive, factual. Everything you say makes perfect sense. Bless your heart for sharing.
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Wow… so insightful and full of emotion…. The mind control of gambling is so strong .. we have only to be stronger… thanks for the wisdom and encouraging words for others fighting the same battle… Lindy
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoWell I only have one day that I messed up and gambled and that was 8 days ago. Before that I had about two weeks clean from gambling. I’m proud of myself. These past three weeks have gone by really fast. The first week seemed to drag by because I found myself thinking about gambling several times a day. As somebody else mentioned stay away then…[Read more]
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Cpart wow nice message. Thank you. Also I’m really happy to hear your progress. I’m nearly 5 weeks free 😊❤️
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoHi group. I hate to say it but I messed up and gambled Saturday night online. I had a very hard time sleeping. I was able to use self control many times with the urge that night but later on in the later hours of the night I gave in to my urge. But it’s okay because the last four nights I haven’t done it again. Also instead of wasting a bunch of…[Read more]
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Hi CPart
Great 4 nights/days awesome. Good that you only spent $100. Sometimes a machine can pay so a person winds up not spending much. Possibly that was the case.
Sounds like you are getting better control which is good. It does say you are getting more used to staying away.
Caution though you probably know that anyways. I’m happy for you it s…[Read more]
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoI’m so grateful that I found this group. If it wasn’t for finding this group I’m sure that today I couldn’t say that I have ten days straight without gambling There are a few things that I need to go buy and it feels good that I still have money in my account to go buy and not worry about being short for my bill money. It’s crazy because I make…[Read more]
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I’m new to the group but so glad I’m here ! Thanks for sharing
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Your post made me smile .
It’s so encouraging to hear your progress!
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoToday is another day not gambling. I feel some relief but I still got to recover from the debt that I have created which makes me a nervous wreck, but I’ll get there. Feels good to put my money towards my responsibilies for a change. It will take some time getting caught up but thank God I’m finally working toward it and not drowning in big…[Read more]
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Good for you Cpart. I hear you about debt recovery. In my case a good portion is more business related. Just a tuff business I’m in. Not to say gambling hasn’t stollen money from me it has. And plenty of it.
It’s certainly not easy to turn a back to gambling it takes a lot of strength and perseverance.
Another day free.
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoIt’s now day 8. And it feels so good to get two paychecks (I work two jobs) and be able to still see that money in my account and not just give it away. All of that casino and online casino by now would have it all. I’m especially disgusted with the online casinos because two of them cheated me on my free spins more than once. It’s bad enough to…[Read more]
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Awesome stuff, good for you man!
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Cpart that’s wonderful. Sounds like you work pretty hard. Two jobs. Money in your account, staying 🙂it feels good to know you are hanging in there well. It’s encouraging I am also another day free of gambling. And I hear you about the off set machines or play. I feel the same as you and I believe it‘s valid observations. ❤️
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoHello everyone. Today was payday and I had an urge to gamble. That little demon in my head tried pretty hard to get me to break down and do it again. But I used self control and I didn’t go there. Wow! I have chills just thinking about it! Thank you for all the support. I’m so happy that I’m on my way to a better life!!!!
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👏 so awesome ❤️
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Such a good day for you way to go
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Celebrating you!!! Proud of you for not giving in, keep going!!! We got this ❤️👊🏽
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Hey, what a great successful day and that encouragement for myself keep it up you’ll do well
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years, 1 months agoToday is only almost day 6 the thought about gambling has came to my mind several times but each time I remember to remind myself that I will never get a handle on this if I mess up and go. I just think about the rewards that I will reap if I continue to stay away from that misery making money ripping offing horrible place. I will in time have a…[Read more]
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Cpart I hear you another day free for myself also. That’s not going too change.
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The feelings you have are ones most of us have had… It seemed that the complications got worse because of not only gambling… but lying or not telling the truth… and hating each time we do it… But with God’s help you can do it…. Take care … Lindy
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years, 1 months agoWell today is day 5 and I still have no urges to go gamble. I’m thrilled that I have help from people who understand my addiction and to me this is like I finally won that big jackpot that I’ve been chasing for thirty years but better! Thank you!
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Wow Cpart, so inspiring and proud of you!! Celebrating day 5 with you!!! I was just thinking today, the true freedom here (for me) isn’t gonna come when I win all that money, but when I decide to detach from the idea that gambling is the hit i need to fill that time, feel that thrill and get those to dopamine boosts. When I chose to fill my…[Read more]
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Congratulations Cpart! You are inspiring me big time! I know it’s a freeing feeling and I look forward to experiencing that. I’ve blown so much money, including running CCs up too. The wins were definitely highs but I realized today there are more lows than high times with gambling. I look forward to seeing more money in my accounts from sav…[Read more]
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Awesome Cpart ❤️ it’s been another day free for myself also.
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Wow, five days I am back to day 2 for scratches. Way to go in your success. It’s got a feel good.
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Cpart posted an update in the group
Community 1 years, 1 months agoI just thought that I would share something that I’m proud about. It’s what I accomplished yesterday. Today is only day 4 but yesterday my granddaughters needed a ride to go visit their mother for spring break and I always give them a ride to go see her. Knowingly that she lives three miles from morongo casino I told my son that it’s best if he…[Read more]
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That’s wonderful progress Cpart
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Being open and honest about it being a trigger is huge! Im proud of you. Sending love your way.
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Being transparent is huge! Keep going, will be here cheering you on. 🙂
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Sometimes a slip is a good reminder of why you need to stay as strong as you can. Losing like you did has made you very aware of why you wanted to stop. If you’re in real difficulty perhaps asking for help would not be all that bad if you have someone who you can confide in… but that’s up to you…. God will help of course… but keep in mind…[Read more]