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Hi everyone. Well I have only messed up once with spending money gambling since March 23rd. I feel so good that I finally hit that point and woke up! Thank you Lord! Such a relief and a better piece of mind now I actually think about other things now instead of being consumed with gamble gamble gamble on the brain. I can actually get in my car and pay attention to the road instead of having my phone on my lap and playing online slots while driving. I’ve had several close calls on the California congested highways and freeways because of the enemy, the sickness, that horrible robber that I’ve let rob me time and time again for more than 20 draining depressing years. Wow! I have tears of joying running down my face and chills, I’m shaking so bad right now I can hardly text. I finally let it out. I even have had a couple days that I didn’t even think about a slot machine. I’m now picking up the pieces and started a new journey to better myself. My advice is that you have to really really want this. You have to reach that point. If you continue to do the same old thing again and again after telling yourself this is the last time pretty soon hopefully you will finally get lucky and hit that bottom. The key here is ” you have to want it, with being totally honest with yourself. You have to finally discipline yourself and say that’s it. I’m better than this b.s. this has taken the last damn dollar and it’s not taking anymore. It’s worth it. It’s hard but remember what you will reap when you stop. You will feel like yourself again. The person who has control, the person who makes good decisions, the person who knows the value of the dollar who works very hard to make that dollar. Don’t let those crooks steal from you anymore and ruin your life and your family. My God it’s horrible. We have enough things in life already to deal with but with gambling it’s the worst of any kind.