• TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Yeah, one of my plans on my list is to send all but $200 to my friend´s acct before I go out, just in case. I keep $200 if I decide to stop at a restaurant for lunch or dinner and/or need gas. I can´t logically shut myself off of a source of all funds if I am out- in case of emergency. That, for me, is reality, because even when I don´t go to th…[Read more]

    • That sounds great! You can also purchase a prepaid visa card which will allow you to pay for daily expenses but will not let you take cash off of it. Have a wonderful day.

  • TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    You´re welcome and thank you!

  • TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Okay, you asked for it to be turned around. I just wrote this.
    THE RECOVERY

    The paycheck came home this night
    You decided to do what was right
    Enjoying the children and the spouse
    Tonight there´s happiness in the house

    The choice tonight is all up to you
    So you do what you should do
    You work too hard during the day
    To just go out and throw it…[Read more]

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    The actual new sign I just made up to put on my bedroom door: The Casino

    Every Day
    You Stay Away is
    A DAY
    YOU WIN!

    • That’s nice but think of some ways you can put some roadblocks up such as no access to cash or banning yourself because there’s going to come a day when that sign on your bedroom door will not be enough.

      • Yeah, one of my plans on my list is to send all but $200 to my friend´s acct before I go out, just in case. I keep $200 if I decide to stop at a restaurant for lunch or dinner and/or need gas. I can´t logically shut myself off of a source of all funds if I am out- in case of emergency. That, for me, is reality, because even when I don´t go to th…[Read more]

        • That sounds great! You can also purchase a prepaid visa card which will allow you to pay for daily expenses but will not let you take cash off of it. Have a wonderful day.

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    I was just talking to a friend who knew the day I spent $1,000 in a casino and went home empty-handed. I told her I have no choice if I want to retire with any kind of decent bank account balance. I also said this (which will become my mantra): Every day I don´t go to the casino is a day I have already won!

  • TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    You are welcome.

  • TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Thanks. I had a good day today and made the right decision on the way home. I was visiting family and a brother said he had won $2500 at the casino yesterday. I had to make myself drive past the turnoff on the highway to avoid going there on the way home. I knew if I made it past that turnoff that I would not take the next one available because I…[Read more]

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    ADDICTED

    One more paycheck and one more wasted night
    Don’t bother to think you could call this all right
    Another night away from the children and spouse
    More time not caring for the others in your house

    No one can ever tell you what you should do
    Yes, the choices you make are all up to you
    You think you have the right to spend all day
    You think…[Read more]

  • TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I don´t do gambling on apps. I go to a casino, BUT the feeling is the same. It´s the adrenaline rush. The machine lets you ´win a few´ then it kills you by take bill after bill out of your wallet or $ after $ out of your bank and you willingly help it screw you. But you feel you can´t help it because the next big win is on the next spin or push…[Read more]

  • TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I will have to do that. Thanks for the motivation! I will start the time from October 15th, because I was in the casino on Oct 14th. I do have a bit of an advantage right now, in regard to not going for a while for sure. I just paid $720 for new glasses and used my friend´s credit card. She got the points on the card and I get to pay in…[Read more]

  • TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thank you 🙂 I can post the original ´Addicted¨ poem if you would like.

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I am calling that poem: Breaking the Curse — The Broken Gambler´s Rule

    • Nice…..Can’t wait to read your next poem on how it feels to be 30 days clean.😊 You’re a good writer! Keep up the great work.💕💕💕

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    Encourage others when they fail
    Helping them to tell the tale
    Help them exorcise the wrong
    Help them again to be strong

    We may be weak on our own
    No one can ever do it alone
    With support we lessen the pain
    So good things can come again

    The losses we will never recoup
    But we get support from the group
    So each day will become brighter
    Our minds…[Read more]

  • TheLostOne2023 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 4 weeks ago

    Thanks :). I also have the fact that I study languages to keep what´s left of my brain occupied for parts of the day. Now when I am angry at myself I can call myself names in 3 languages.

    • 😂😂😂

    • I started a side hustle as a laundry pro a year ago just to keep busy and be of service to others and I’m actually really enjoying it! You just never know where the blessings will come from but I’m grateful. Enjoy your day.😊

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 4 weeks ago

    One thing I have going for me is that I walk almost every day – if my back is sore or I don´t feel well, I stay home. I work full-time so I have to make sure I can get to work and I sacrifice that day´s walking if I must. I started in Sept and have so far lost 14 pounds (something I always love losing). It is good for my physical and mental w…[Read more]

    • That’s awesome!! 14 pounds is a lot!! Have a wonderful gamble free day.😊💕

      • Thanks :). I also have the fact that I study languages to keep what´s left of my brain occupied for parts of the day. Now when I am angry at myself I can call myself names in 3 languages.

        • 😂😂😂

        • I started a side hustle as a laundry pro a year ago just to keep busy and be of service to others and I’m actually really enjoying it! You just never know where the blessings will come from but I’m grateful. Enjoy your day.😊

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 4 weeks ago

    That poem was almost 19 years ago. I even took the time to make a Powerpoint presentation out of it. I guess I didn´t think I would become one of the people I was talking about. That´s an eye-opener that hurts.

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 4 weeks ago

    And to think I even wrote a poem about addiction years ago. Guess I should print it out again and put it on the wall.

    • And keep a copy of it in the sunvisor / glovebox of your car.
      For me when the addition tries to convince to go gamble saying things
      will be different I play the tape to the end. To the part where I don’t have
      a dime left in my accounts and with tears running down my cheeks I
      bang the steering wheel of my car saying why why again.

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 4 weeks ago

    What I hate is the stupidity of thinking, ´I can beat it this time!´, then come home and have to borrow money from a friend to make sure I don´t go into a negative in my bank account. My brain played tricks on me- made me think it was okay to go because all my bills were paid and I had money in the bank. Then the crap hit the fan when I sat th…[Read more]

    • I feel you. If you’re serious about getting some clean time you need to set up roadblocks that will stop you when the urges arise. My #1 roadblock option is DO NOT HAVE ANY ACCESS TO CASH. For everyday expenses like gas and food put money on a prepaid Visa card. You will be able to purchase items but you won’t be able to withdraw cash from the…[Read more]

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 7 months ago

    I would like to add a note I typed to myself about a month ago. Unfortunately, I have failed twice to heed my own advice. But I am now at the point where I absolutely MUST PAY ATTENTION TO IT!…[Read more]

  • TheLostOne2023 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 7 months ago

    I need help to stop this crap and wasting money.