@stephann
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 10 months, 1 weeks agoDay 10.Will be leavin in a half hr to make a mtg.This time around gamb has destroyed my mind to the point of insanity.Each Day i feel a little better trying not to look back but forward..Thinkin back to last mtg i did a reading in yellow book the 20 quest.I could answer yes to all of them but what really made mw think was quest 17 i believe it…[Read more]
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stephann posted a new activity comment 11 months ago
Thanks Meg.I kind of read thru some of your posts.I can remember with each one of my pregnancys saying this is it im gonna quit i really thought that me being pregnant would stop me.Sadly it didnt and i can remember very vividly when i went into labor with my 1st daughter on the way to the hospital demanding he stopped at a convenience store on…[Read more]
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Thank you for your advice. Right now my husband and child are my biggest motivation, I want to quit for them. Its been hard. This is my Day 2 of not gambling. I still think about it when I wake up but when I see my husband next to me, I just feel peace and quiet and telling myself that I don’t want to hurt him and our family anymore. I hope you f…[Read more]
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I relate… the things I’ve done would sound absolutely crazy to someone without an addiction.. it’s completely irrational behavior . Yet when I’m doing it it’s like I’m in a haze, nothing around me gets my attention. I’m 50 with 2 wonderful grown kids and a very tolerant husband who works his butt off and that’s not enough
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Come clean to your husband. It sounds that you have a wonderful man. I think it will really helps that you have that comveesation with him. I was so scared to tell my husband what I have done but hiding it from him was eating me away. I will pray for you and everyone on here that we all find that courage to start over and have the courage to make…[Read more]
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 11 months agoDay 4 no gamb.Been ok up until today.After work i needed to cash a chk from a job i did as i had no $ at all on me.I had no gas no coffee $ so i went to the bank.While i was sitting in drive thru i said to my self im goin to the nearest corner store w/ this $ and gettin just 1-50$ scratch tix and i will keep the rest for gas and coffee and some…[Read more]
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One day at a time. You are not alone. We all struggle but we just have to keep going for our family and try our best to better ourselves for them.
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Thanks Meg.I kind of read thru some of your posts.I can remember with each one of my pregnancys saying this is it im gonna quit i really thought that me being pregnant would stop me.Sadly it didnt and i can remember very vividly when i went into labor with my 1st daughter on the way to the hospital demanding he stopped at a convenience store on…[Read more]
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Thank you for your advice. Right now my husband and child are my biggest motivation, I want to quit for them. Its been hard. This is my Day 2 of not gambling. I still think about it when I wake up but when I see my husband next to me, I just feel peace and quiet and telling myself that I don’t want to hurt him and our family anymore. I hope you f…[Read more]
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I relate… the things I’ve done would sound absolutely crazy to someone without an addiction.. it’s completely irrational behavior . Yet when I’m doing it it’s like I’m in a haze, nothing around me gets my attention. I’m 50 with 2 wonderful grown kids and a very tolerant husband who works his butt off and that’s not enough
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I’ve lied so m…[Read more]-
Come clean to your husband. It sounds that you have a wonderful man. I think it will really helps that you have that comveesation with him. I was so scared to tell my husband what I have done but hiding it from him was eating me away. I will pray for you and everyone on here that we all find that courage to start over and have the courage to make…[Read more]
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 11 months agoToday is Day 2 for me.I went to a mtg yesterday because i have to stop this my mind has been really affected by this.I have no time for anybody my husband my kids all i do is gamble and work a ton and give everyone around me an attitude because ive gone broke and cant break this cycle.However gettin back to my ga mtg yesterday my 15 yr old…[Read more]
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Hi today is day 3 for me . Your words have just hit hard as I was tempted to tell my children yesterday now I don’t think I will. I don’t think I could forgive myself if they ever started. My heads been a bit mashed today but it’s nearly over.
My mum and sister both are quite bad for it too but since my break down 3 days ago they do seem to be he…[Read more]
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 11 months, 1 weeks agoThis is the sickest gamb has ever made me its all mental.Gamb has wopped my butt i feel like i been mentally tortured from this.I couldnt even get out of bed today.I dont want to feel this pain ever again.So Day 1 almost over!!
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Hi Stephann. I hope you are hanging in there all best wishes for you!
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stephann posted a new activity comment 11 months, 1 weeks ago
Hi Etido.Im sorry gamb has got u down.We cannot win as compulsive gamblers our $ always goes back as someone in GA has said before any winnings are a tempoary loan it goes back.Im feeling at my lowest right now as well.This gamb has takin everything from me inclusing my sanity.Remeber each Day is another chance to start your Day free of…[Read more]
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stephann posted a new activity comment 11 months, 1 weeks ago
Hi Linglang.Im struggling with blowing all my $ every single week i have 3 girls my youngest is 15 and she suffers from me doing this my older daughter is struggling as she is a young single Mom and i dont even help her i have become selfish im also suffering because i cannot stop gamb.You mentioned u were doing good and had stopped gamb just…[Read more]
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sorry to hear of both of your troubles :/. I came pretty close to becoming homeless myself. 43 living with my mom now and driving a car that has been totalled twice over. got a decent job but nothing to show for it. workaholic as well close to 80 hours a week sometimes. sucks to work so hard and be unable to even buy new clothes/shoes…
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 11 months, 2 weeks agoToday is Day 1.Gamb has been affecting every part of my life.It seems no matter how much $ i win its not enough and when i lose i chase my loses.I feel like its affecting my health now.Why is this all i seem to want to do? I hurry thru my jobs at work to run to the convenience store and sit in my car to gamble.This is not what i want but its just…[Read more]
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 12 months agoDay 1 all over again
Iwent to GA mtg yesterday and was out gamb shortly after- after the mtg a few members did chat w/me.Told me to use the telephone list call people and i have to make changes.As i said before this is making me sick.I gamble away my last dollar every time.I woke up this am and did some readings in the yellow book.I an to not…[Read more] -
stephann posted an update in the group
Community 12 months agoDay 1.Im starting today out with a mtg.They say gamb gets orogressively worse and i am living it now.Gamb is making me physically sick as well.I woke last night and had a panic attack in middle of night this has never happened before.I am just a complete and utter mess.When i woke up this am i had a msg from a member at GA checkin on me so i said…[Read more]
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It’s good that you’re going to meetings… you’ll find a lot of support… Unfortunately this addiction causes a lot of heartache but not everyone is addicted.. pretty well the same as alcohol… There’s more temptations now though I think because it’s advertised so many places…. take care .. Lindy
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoI am an absolute mess.Any suggestions to tell my husband just how bad this is for me?
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When I told my husband, I decided to write a letter to him. This way I was able to say everything I was feeling and what I needed him to do to help me, without getting into a discussion and not being able to say all that I felt he needed to know. I told him I would be ready to talk face to face after he took some time to process things and was…[Read more]
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Great suggestion Browniegrl.
When we been with a partner for many years we expect them to be a mind reader and when they don’t do or act how we want or think they should we get upset and hurt.
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stephann posted a new activity comment 1 years ago
Hi Nicolep.I can relate to you with the anxiety gamb causes and even more so the sleep problems.I been gamb 34 yrs it started out i would wake in middle of night and realize omg what have i done many yrs of that has caused mw to develop insomnia which i now wake at 3 am every morning and cannot fall back asleep.I have to carry on all Day being exhausted.
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stephann posted a new activity comment 1 years ago
I told him something like i wanted to stay between us.***
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoIm also not sure how to deal with this.I told my husband earlier this wk and asked him to keep it between us.While i was out gamb today i bumped into his friend and he mentioned what i had told my husband.Makes me feel like i cant tell him personal info.He told.me he wouldnt tell anybody it wasnt bad but the point he couldnt keep my secret made me…[Read more]
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I told him something like i wanted to stay between us.***
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Stephann
When a person confides in someone one hopes they will hold what they have said in confidence.
Do you think he told his friend to be malicious ?
It may be hard on your husband to know the burden you carry. Sometimes when we share something that was shared in confidence it’s to find suggestions of how to make things better. It to try a…[Read more]
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoI screwed up again today.I was 19 days free from gamb my mom was sick today so she couldnt work so in between jobs i stopped at a store and by the end of the Day blew my entire pay check.In between my gamb i was buying jello shots which is out of the norm for me becuz i dont drink but i needed something to get me in a better mood and take the pain…[Read more]
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Stephann 19 days free of gambling is really good. I’m sorry you had a slip. But you really are trying hard good for you!
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoDay 10.As i have mentioned before my Mom works w/ me daily and after my last job today my Mom said i feel like a scratch tix.I said no.Im not sure why my Mom keeps this up when their habe been many wks i have takin some of her pay and used it to gamble and she was upset about that and i still owe her $ from doing that.Istopped gamb in front of my…[Read more]
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Awesome Stephann. ❤️you are doing amazing!
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoToday is Day 7.Thia ia huge for me.Tomor is Easter and for some reason i get all angst at Holidays so i found out that a local GA mtg will be open tomor ao thats where i will go.I cannot gamble any longer i am in so much debt with my credit cards i even went as far as taking out cash loans on my 3 girls life ins policies because it earns cash…[Read more]
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Good for you Stephann.
We can’t undo what has been done. But as I believe after experience we have come to realize doing the same won’t make our lives better.
Thank you for your message. Even though I have just over a month bet free hearing your words reaffirm my decision not to gamble.
Much love❤️
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 years agoDay 5.Leavin in 45 mins for a GA mtg tonight.This will be 2 this wk! I was thinking today how much i love the song the Gambler by Kenny Rogers.I have many members who keep txting me daily to keep going to meetings.I been gambling for to long this time i gor a touch of insanity like it says in yelliw book i dont want to feel that ever again.
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Woot woot 🙂
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Wish there was a GA meeting close to me. Nearest one is like 8 hours away. I am going to try one of the virtual meets this weekend.
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stephann posted a new activity comment 1 years ago
Hi Jlwinn, I can relate to you.My credit cards are maxed out as well.Last month i took a business cash credit card of mine and went to about 10 different atms taking out cash advamces within 2 days i maxed out that card.I juat got my bill in this wk and i cringe looking at it.Just curious as to what type of gambling u do? The only thing that has…[Read more]
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Yep! I know the feeling. Started out just with those sweeps-style sites. Got an advert on facebook and tried it out. Ended up winning big. Spent another year trying to chase that high. Nothing was ever good enough. In fact, I ended up losing way more than I had won that first time. I’d self exclude from one site, only to move on to the next site…[Read more]
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Try putting Betblocker on your phone / computers etc..
And give your partner all your credit cards and bank cards and get an allowance.
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Thank you Stephann it’s sounds like it was a good meeting. When I think about the meeting I went to that’s awhile back. There definitely was more men. There must of been 30 people and out of that three women including myself. I never thought about until now. Maybe that’s part of my discomfort in the meeting although everyone there was really kind…[Read more]
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