• stephann posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 1 days ago

    Hi.I no exactly what your going thru- Im 48 started gamb when i was 14 as thats what i was taught growing up.Ive lost about a million dollars gamb in all those yrs blowing my entire paycheck every wk depriving my kids when they were little of my time i use to wake up go to the corner store w/ my 3 kids and we would sit in the car thruout the…[Read more]

  • stephann posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 3 days ago

    Those few words you spoke are so true and help me get thru the past few days.Gambling gets worse each time i go back out and turns me into an insane mess.Today is 11 days foe me and i hope to keep it going and i also hope your able to get some recovery as well.

  • stephann posted a new activity comment 1 months ago

    I feel for you.Im in the same boat.Its hard to keep going on this path.I live in US and the gamb website in are state they just published is up 121% do to sportsbetting-However thats not my prob w/ gamb the 50$ scratch off tixs are.If u happen to find a way to stop this addiction plz share with me- I cannot keep living like this im 48 been gamb…[Read more]

  • stephann posted a new activity comment 1 months ago

    You are not alone.I myself juat went back out and lost a ton of $$.I gambled away my entire months check in 1 day on scratch tix.Im sitting in my bedroom right now and feel like im literally paralyzed i dont want to do anything and the thought of tomor makes me sick becuz i no im gonna wake up and say wtf did i do yesterday!! I dont no why this is…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months ago

    Hi.I need some advice on what to do here.I have a major gamb prob i can admit that been to many GA mtgs and never stick it out.The amount of $ ive blown is just insane.Taking out cc withdrawels cashing checks to the point ive over drawn this wkend spent my entire paycheck this wk and borrowed $ from my Dad.Im in a mess right now.I have my own…[Read more]

    • I’d say therapy might help

    • Maybe family counselling would help. If you are able to get your family to go.
      Gambling I think in part is because of the dissatisfaction of something in our lives. And to stay away a person needs to create a new way of life in a sense.
      We can’t get back what we have lost but we can keep ourselves from losing more.

    • You’re not alone.. I swore I was stopping. Promised my family and this week I’ve lost so much money . Was up all night trying to win it back and I only lost more. I’m in Hell and I don’t know how to get out:( I’ve borrowed from everyone and took a cash advance on all my credit cards plus my husbands . How will this get paid back, I’ll never know.…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 4 weeks ago

    Is their anyone on this Chat who lives im Massachuestts? Im just wondering if their is any other help besides Gamb anonymous mtgs.

    • Have you tried counselling, im not sure if you get free counselling where you live because here in bc Canada we have a program for gamblers to get free counselling through 1800 numbers

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 4 weeks ago

    Day 1. I have been struggling with gamb since i was 13 im 47 now it started out with the 1$ scratch tixs and now i play the 50$ scratch tixs.I went thru an insane amount of $ the past 3 days 3000$ which is nothing compared to what ive lost thru out my life .The majority of thr $ ive just lost was from credit card cash advances.I could not sleep…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 7 months, 1 weeks ago

    Day 1. Just got home from a GA mtg- These mtgs are the only way i will stay free from gamb- Ive caused so much destruction to my familys finances its juat incredible.The meetings give me hope and im always welcomed back by everyone in the rooms.Just this past wk my Dad was diagnosed with lung cancer that has spread so he picks me up every morning…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 7 months, 3 weeks ago

    Hi.I managed to just get 30 days!! Then i get a call from my sister that my Dads biopsy revealed he has lung cancer that has spread now i got to watch my Dad suffer thru Chemo radiation- So right back out the door i go to gamble and lose everything i managed to save in those 30 days in just 1 Day.A hell of alot of $ that i was planning to use for…[Read more]

    • I feel the same but after losing a whole months check and not having money to even eat on for the month much less pay bills or have money for Christmas I swear as God is my witness I’ll never gamble again. Sometimes it takes getting to the bottom of the bottom and I’m there. I’m very sorry to hear about your father. I pray he comes out well. We…[Read more]

  • stephann posted a new activity comment 9 months ago

    Hi Ken.Thank you and that was a great suggestion.Anything to get my mind of gamb and whats most important.The struggle is real.Will be workin on Day 7 tomor.Thanks for being here for me and everyone else here.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 9 months ago

    Day 5.I just got in from a ga mtg.It always seems when i get in my car to go somewhere thats when i think about gambling- I struggled in my head on my way to mtg this am to stop at a conveince store and get a scratch tix and skip the mtg but somehow i did not stop i went to my mtg.I always here something at these mtgs that i can relate to.If im…[Read more]

    • kenl replied 9 months ago

      Hey Stephann
      In my early days of recovery I use to keep a picture of my kids in the sun visor and when my addiction
      tried to talk me into going gambling ” Just for a little while” I would look at the picture and remind myself
      that if I continued to gamble I could lose my family.
      Keep up attending your meeting
      God Bless
      Ken L YBIR

      • Hi Ken.Thank you and that was a great suggestion.Anything to get my mind of gamb and whats most important.The struggle is real.Will be workin on Day 7 tomor.Thanks for being here for me and everyone else here.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 9 months ago

    Day 3.I went to a mtg last night i forced myself becuz i was so tired.I have always been able to identify with step 1 but never moved on to step 2.After my mtg on Wed night a member talked to me for a half hr after the mtg i thought about that conversation alot yesterday and about how much worse gamb can get i always feel like im the worst gambler…[Read more]

    • kenl replied 9 months ago

      Hi Stepann
      Sounds like you are ready to make some life changes and are at step # 2 of the GA recovery program.
      WIll keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you move forward.
      God Bless
      Ken L YBIR

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 9 months, 1 weeks ago

    Day 2.I plan to not gamble today go to work and then a mtg.Im glad their is more meetings opening up in area.

    • Congrats stephann! You should be very proud of yourself. You can also participate in meetings from the comfort of your own home 24/7 thru gamblersinrecovery.com Wishing you continued success in your recovery process.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 9 months, 1 weeks ago

    Im sitting in the parking lot of my GA mtg a few mjns early which is unusal for me.To make it this far today is a miracle for me.If i dont continue to stay in this program i feel like im gonna hurt myself.I have so much goin for me my own business love my job.But i continue to sabatage myself.I think this is like my 500th time going back into Ga…[Read more]

  • stephann posted a new activity comment 9 months, 1 weeks ago

    I didnt specify in above post that my friend from ga went ouy and gamled after 2 1/2 yrs of clean time.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 9 months, 1 weeks ago

    Day 1.I have been continuing to gamble off borrowed $ from my Dad.I just cannot take 1 more day of this so i decided im goin to make a ga mtg tonight and tomor night.I have a friend in ga who recently just reached 2 1/2 yrs free of gamb and i honestly thought she would never gamble again.As much as i like her she wants to get a ride from me to the…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 9 months, 1 weeks ago

    Day 1 for me.I am so broke and broken from this addiction.I just feel hopeless that i will never stop this and im in this for the rest of my life pain and misery.Its not normal to blow ur entire paycheck every wk and then have no gas or coffee $ or $ to pay my bills.I recently had almost 30 days but sometimes when im driving its like the fkn devil…[Read more]

    • I am in the same situation Stepann. I’ll do fine for a while then temptation creeps in. I guess the key is too resist temptation. It’s difficult because we always think that a win is coming. Then we end up broke and devastated. I have decided to remember how I feel now the next time that temptation to go comes creeping in again. I wish I can pla…[Read more]

    • Hi Stephann….I know you’ve been trying to get some clean time for a while now. I’m going to suggest something that people might think is a little wacky but it’s worked for me so maybe it will work for you too. Create a mantra for yourself. My two favorites right now are “I’m living an amazing life because I did not gamble today” and “ Money flows…[Read more]

    • I know the feeling. It’s very difficult and embarrassing after high spending gambling. It’s like the devil gets in your head and controls you. What’s helping me is trying to replace the gambling urge with a new hobby. Have you considered a new hobby to help take your mind off? Bowling, gym ? etc

    • Today is my first day here. Know that you are not alone because what you just shared is exactly what I am going through as well! I blew my entire paycheck, 800.00. I’ve been on this path of destruction for quite some time and I am losing everything. My car is going to be repossessed because I took out a title loan, which I gambled and I haven’t…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 10 months ago

    Day 15.I was reading earlier posts and DP’s stuck out when said i was hooked from the start- So was I.Started gamb very young at 13 im now 47 and i have struggled with this addiction for to long.Lost so much $ in that time i could own 2 houses outright and be retired right now its sickening.I am attending GA mtgs.But i will say this addiction has…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 11 months, 1 weeks ago

    Day 10.Its nice to have some $ for coffee and gas in the morning.Also goin to buy my daughter some school clothes this am.I got set back a little on Monday gettin a flat tire but i would rather pay for a tire then give the Massachusetts lottery any more $.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 11 months, 1 weeks ago

    Day 5.Left for work this am put air in all my tires in my Jeep got a mile down the road my tire gors flat.I pulled into a empty parking lot called AAA and it took them over 2 hrs to long to get to me.The entire time i sat their all that went thru my head was i just want to go gamble now.However i did not.Some guy pulled into the parking lot seeing…[Read more]

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