• stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 2 days, 3 hours ago

    Is their anyone on this Chat who lives im Massachuestts? Im just wondering if their is any other help besides Gamb anonymous mtgs.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 2 days, 3 hours ago

    Day 1. I have been struggling with gamb since i was 13 im 47 now it started out with the 1$ scratch tixs and now i play the 50$ scratch tixs.I went thru an insane amount of $ the past 3 days 3000$ which is nothing compared to what ive lost thru out my life .The majority of thr $ ive just lost was from credit card cash advances.I could not sleep…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    Day 1. Just got home from a GA mtg- These mtgs are the only way i will stay free from gamb- Ive caused so much destruction to my familys finances its juat incredible.The meetings give me hope and im always welcomed back by everyone in the rooms.Just this past wk my Dad was diagnosed with lung cancer that has spread so he picks me up every morning…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Hi.I managed to just get 30 days!! Then i get a call from my sister that my Dads biopsy revealed he has lung cancer that has spread now i got to watch my Dad suffer thru Chemo radiation- So right back out the door i go to gamble and lose everything i managed to save in those 30 days in just 1 Day.A hell of alot of $ that i was planning to use for…[Read more]

    • I feel the same but after losing a whole months check and not having money to even eat on for the month much less pay bills or have money for Christmas I swear as God is my witness I’ll never gamble again. Sometimes it takes getting to the bottom of the bottom and I’m there. I’m very sorry to hear about your father. I pray he comes out well. We…[Read more]

  • stephann posted a new activity comment 4 months ago

    Hi Ken.Thank you and that was a great suggestion.Anything to get my mind of gamb and whats most important.The struggle is real.Will be workin on Day 7 tomor.Thanks for being here for me and everyone else here.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 1 week ago

    Day 5.I just got in from a ga mtg.It always seems when i get in my car to go somewhere thats when i think about gambling- I struggled in my head on my way to mtg this am to stop at a conveince store and get a scratch tix and skip the mtg but somehow i did not stop i went to my mtg.I always here something at these mtgs that i can relate to.If im…[Read more]

    • Hey Stephann
      In my early days of recovery I use to keep a picture of my kids in the sun visor and when my addiction
      tried to talk me into going gambling ” Just for a little while” I would look at the picture and remind myself
      that if I continued to gamble I could lose my family.
      Keep up attending your meeting
      God Bless
      Ken L YBIR

      • Hi Ken.Thank you and that was a great suggestion.Anything to get my mind of gamb and whats most important.The struggle is real.Will be workin on Day 7 tomor.Thanks for being here for me and everyone else here.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 1 week ago

    Day 3.I went to a mtg last night i forced myself becuz i was so tired.I have always been able to identify with step 1 but never moved on to step 2.After my mtg on Wed night a member talked to me for a half hr after the mtg i thought about that conversation alot yesterday and about how much worse gamb can get i always feel like im the worst gambler…[Read more]

    • Hi Stepann
      Sounds like you are ready to make some life changes and are at step # 2 of the GA recovery program.
      WIll keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you move forward.
      God Bless
      Ken L YBIR

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 1 week ago

    Day 2.I plan to not gamble today go to work and then a mtg.Im glad their is more meetings opening up in area.

    • Congrats stephann! You should be very proud of yourself. You can also participate in meetings from the comfort of your own home 24/7 thru gamblersinrecovery.com Wishing you continued success in your recovery process.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 1 week ago

    Im sitting in the parking lot of my GA mtg a few mjns early which is unusal for me.To make it this far today is a miracle for me.If i dont continue to stay in this program i feel like im gonna hurt myself.I have so much goin for me my own business love my job.But i continue to sabatage myself.I think this is like my 500th time going back into Ga…[Read more]

  • stephann posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    I didnt specify in above post that my friend from ga went ouy and gamled after 2 1/2 yrs of clean time.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 1 week ago

    Day 1.I have been continuing to gamble off borrowed $ from my Dad.I just cannot take 1 more day of this so i decided im goin to make a ga mtg tonight and tomor night.I have a friend in ga who recently just reached 2 1/2 yrs free of gamb and i honestly thought she would never gamble again.As much as i like her she wants to get a ride from me to the…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    Day 1 for me.I am so broke and broken from this addiction.I just feel hopeless that i will never stop this and im in this for the rest of my life pain and misery.Its not normal to blow ur entire paycheck every wk and then have no gas or coffee $ or $ to pay my bills.I recently had almost 30 days but sometimes when im driving its like the fkn devil…[Read more]

    • I am in the same situation Stepann. I’ll do fine for a while then temptation creeps in. I guess the key is too resist temptation. It’s difficult because we always think that a win is coming. Then we end up broke and devastated. I have decided to remember how I feel now the next time that temptation to go comes creeping in again. I wish I can pla…[Read more]

    • Hi Stephann….I know you’ve been trying to get some clean time for a while now. I’m going to suggest something that people might think is a little wacky but it’s worked for me so maybe it will work for you too. Create a mantra for yourself. My two favorites right now are “I’m living an amazing life because I did not gamble today” and “ Money flows…[Read more]

    • I know the feeling. It’s very difficult and embarrassing after high spending gambling. It’s like the devil gets in your head and controls you. What’s helping me is trying to replace the gambling urge with a new hobby. Have you considered a new hobby to help take your mind off? Bowling, gym ? etc

    • Today is my first day here. Know that you are not alone because what you just shared is exactly what I am going through as well! I blew my entire paycheck, 800.00. I’ve been on this path of destruction for quite some time and I am losing everything. My car is going to be repossessed because I took out a title loan, which I gambled and I haven’t…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 5 months, 1 week ago

    Day 15.I was reading earlier posts and DP’s stuck out when said i was hooked from the start- So was I.Started gamb very young at 13 im now 47 and i have struggled with this addiction for to long.Lost so much $ in that time i could own 2 houses outright and be retired right now its sickening.I am attending GA mtgs.But i will say this addiction has…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 1 week ago

    Day 10.Its nice to have some $ for coffee and gas in the morning.Also goin to buy my daughter some school clothes this am.I got set back a little on Monday gettin a flat tire but i would rather pay for a tire then give the Massachusetts lottery any more $.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Day 5.Left for work this am put air in all my tires in my Jeep got a mile down the road my tire gors flat.I pulled into a empty parking lot called AAA and it took them over 2 hrs to long to get to me.The entire time i sat their all that went thru my head was i just want to go gamble now.However i did not.Some guy pulled into the parking lot seeing…[Read more]

  • stephann posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Hi Ryan.Their is help available to us compulsive gamblers!! I consider myself to be one of the worst compulsive gamblers yet somehoq i managed to stop in 2020 for a yr and a half been gamb 35 + yrs lost an incredible amount of $ and put my kids last gamb always came first.Right now im back in GA and workin on Day 4.Everday is a battle for me to…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Day 4.I mentioned a couple days ago of my relapse to gamb and was thinking today it seems almost everytime i relapse i lose all the $ ive managed to save up when i was not gamb and then some more- I think because of how long ive been gamb it has really affected my mind that im trying harder to stop because the mental anguish this has caused me i…[Read more]

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Day 2.I had a nive stretch of time going 50+ days and blew it in an instant..I went to a Ga mtg last night.it is very hard for me to get over the $ ive lost.Because it is a fortume combined thru out my 35+ yrs of gamb- When i have a gamb relapse it is so hard to stop again.My body feelsike its craving a bet just like a drug addict does his nxt…[Read more]

    • So I sit here on Friday lost/bored out of my mind cause all I want to do is gamble. Ive lost a fortune…i was doing good at 120 days this year but since April have lost another 70k bringing the tally to even higher millions. Worst part is I still want to gamble the little I have access to right now, and think of other money I have to move…[Read more]

      • Hi FlavorMan
        I continue to try and stay away also.
        With the words of how much money you are able to generate. It sounds to me you like a challenge.
        I do also I keep that in mind while trying to stay away.
        I wish you strength in staying away.

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 7 months, 4 weeks ago

    Today is Day 22.I been struggling with urges and thoughts of gamb.Foe me the hardest part of stopping gambling is actually stopping so because its so hard to stop i dont want to lose these 22 days.What also keeps me away is the insanity it causes me- I keep going to mtg and stay busy otherwise.

    • It sounds like you’re really trying and keeping busy is important…. Good for you!!!! Take care Lindy

  • stephann posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 8 months, 1 week ago

    Day 10.Will be leavin in a half hr to make a mtg.This time around gamb has destroyed my mind to the point of insanity.Each Day i feel a little better trying not to look back but forward..Thinkin back to last mtg i did a reading in yellow book the 20 quest.I could answer yes to all of them but what really made mw think was quest 17 i believe it…[Read more]

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