@stephann
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stephann posted a new activity comment 4 days, 14 hours ago
Hi Hope.Sounds lime something i have done.I gambled away are mortgage $ at threCasino back in 2010.Lost are house it was forclosed it still didnt stop me.I would suggest telling your wife to keep all the money somewhere u cant get it.
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stephann posted a new activity comment 4 days, 14 hours ago
Hi Luiz.You have to fight back.Ive read on here their are ways to block yourself from gamb on the computers.I wish i had that option with scratch tixs.To lose everything is a terrible feeling.I currently have 16 revolving credit cards i owe on for cash advances.The interest rates are insane on cash advances.Each day i say to myself what have i…[Read more]
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stephann posted a new activity comment 4 days, 14 hours ago
Its insidious.This is why i feel i am no different than any other addict.I also feel like im going to win and i never have won anything substantial.The store i typically would gamb at sold a 1 million dollar winner on the same tix i always buy.Like i just have absolutely no luck at all.I gamble until my last dollar is gone always!!
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stephann posted a new activity comment 4 days, 16 hours ago
Meant to say i only got 2 yrs free from gamb in all those yrs.
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 4 days, 16 hours ago
Day 15.This has been by far the hardest thing that i have ever had to do is stop gamb.Why does something i love to do cause so much pain? I been gamb since i was 13 im going to be 47 this wk and out of all those yrs i only managed to get free from gamb for yrs.If i told u how much $ ive blown i dont think anyone would believe me.I read in an…[Read more]
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 week, 6 days ago
Day 7.I have been struggling really bad with gamb.I stopped posting because it was always Day 1. I could not put any days together.I have done so much damage gambling just last wk i could not continue on living that way.When i gamble i am a danger to everyone around me because i gamble and drive my car.Thats a disaster waiting to happen.I made 2…[Read more]
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stephann posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago
Hi yes.im always here to chat usually unless im working.I called 2 counselors today both reached back out and 1 of them i missed their call.At this point in my life im at the worst of my addiction meaning its progressed to a point i feel like i am completly unable and will not be able to stop.Gamb rules my life i need to get control back.Ive lost…[Read more]
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stephann posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago
You and me Both.I feel like running away myself i cannot stop gambling and i feel like im having gambling withdrawels just like a drug addict does.Im online looking for a counselor i need more help than just GA.
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I’m with you it’s so HARD and embarrassing!! I need more too more than a GA FOR SURE. MAYBE we can start by helping each other. Sounds like we are in the same boat. If you don’t mind I would like for us to talk see where we can go to help each other
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Hi yes.im always here to chat usually unless im working.I called 2 counselors today both reached back out and 1 of them i missed their call.At this point in my life im at the worst of my addiction meaning its progressed to a point i feel like i am completly unable and will not be able to stop.Gamb rules my life i need to get control back.Ive lost…[Read more]
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Same here I’m here writing and totally depressed and feel disgusted and disappointed with myself. Are u in the US OR CANADA ??
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Im in the US
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 month, 3 weeks ago
Day 1.Yesterday i went back out and gambled after attending a mtg thre night.before.Last night while out gambling sitting at the corner store my daughter pulled in and was enraged with me she took my debit card literally cut it up in front of me and then took whatever i had left for $ on me and left the parking lot like a bat out of Hell.This am i…[Read more]
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Is this what you want your life to be about stephann? Do you want your obituary to read “she spent most of her life being a slave to her addiction”?? If you let this addiction take over stephann it won’t just take your money……It wants your happiness and your dignity too. It wants to isolate you from all the people that love and care about you…[Read more]
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Very well said Diamond!♥️
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 month, 3 weeks ago
Day 2.I went to a mtg lastnight.Im always glad i do.Their was talk about a mtg possibly opening up in my town.It was nice to wake up this morning not having gambled yesterday..Their was a man in the meeting lastnight a regular who started to tear up when i explained how bad ( hard ) this has been for me.Everything else in my life is going ok.Ive…[Read more]
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Sounds like your meeting went well that’s wonderful.
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OMG stephann!! That’s so great! Not only did you help yourself by attending a meeting but I guarantee you that you helped that man and probably others by reminding them of the pain and suffering caused by this addiction. Definitely a successful day!! Just keep stringing more days like that together and you’ll gain momentum in the positive dir…[Read more]
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stephann posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago
I was up at 3 am this morning and have been past few days because im having a hard time sleeping due to gamb.Sorry for my misspelling i meant to say i dont ever want to gamble again.We think alot alike.I also wonder if something is wrong with me.Iet my sister use my credit card this wk she charged 670$ then gave me the cash.Guess what i did with…[Read more]
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stephann posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago
Hi Lisa.I can totally understand how u feel.I have been so out of control gamb im losing hope i wont ever stop.Ive lost so much $ it makes me sick!! I hooe you are able to somehow get this undercontrol.Im Day 1 today and going to a GA mtg tonight.This is a struggle.I have 3 kids and quitting this addiction is harding than raising kids i think.Take care.
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 1 month, 3 weeks ago
Day 1.Im not sure what to say besides i been struggling everyday.The compulsive of thoughts i need to go gamble and i act on it are makin me sick.Ive lost so much $ to much $.I just keep going back i read Lisa mesg and i can understand how she feels.Tonight a member from GA is picking me up to take me to mtg..Lately i been telling my husband i…[Read more]
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Hi stephan! So happy to hear you’re going to a GA meeting. I hope you make friends there and get the help you need. Have a wonderful day.
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Stephann I’ve been where you are right now I know it’s not a fun place too be.
I did a lot of soul searching and reasoning with myself.
Getting away from an addiction that has a hold on a person unfortunately isn’t a one day or over night process. There’s probably more than one reason why you are doing what you are doing.
Like those pretty…[Read more]
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 2 months ago
Day 1.Their is so much confusion in my life from gamb.My jeep is a disaster from scratch tix glitter my credit cards ins cards fell out of my purse their buried in between the seats of my truck.I cant take this nonsense anymore.Going to try again today.Not sure why when a few days go by and i dont gamble that i start to feel i can control my gamb.
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Hi Stephann. I forget are you seeing a councillor or are you going too ga meetings.
Pretty hard too block what you are doing. So that I think is your best form of help.
Plus of course speaking here with your friends. ❤️-
I scrolled down you are going too far meetings that’s great. You will absolutely need that extra help. This gambling is too hard too beat on your own.
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Sorry lol far equals ga spell check got me.
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stephann posted a new activity comment 2 months ago
Awww.Thank you.I didnt have a good day.I drove to my GA mtg and decided heck with it anf gambled all day.Just got in.Broke again.I did get a phonecall from a friend from GA she said she is picking me up on Thursday to make sure i go to a meeting.Tomor is a new day another chance to start over.❤
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 2 months ago
Today is Day 2.GA meeting starts at 12 today.I will be their..I mentiioned last night in the chat thread i feel like i been beat up.Thats still how i feel.However in a few days from today that feeling will wither away and thats when i start to feel like i have comtrol over this gamb addiction and i go out and take my beatings again its almost like…[Read more]
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Stephann I’m sure we all feel beat up. We can relate with you. Good move on the GA.
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I hear you stephann. I applaud you on not giving up on yourself. Keep fighting. You are not stuck with the thoughts that you think. When you feel your mindset is dragging you back down you have to fight back. That voice in your head that lures you back to gambling is like a four year old child that wants what it wants whenever it wants it with no…[Read more]
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Awww.Thank you.I didnt have a good day.I drove to my GA mtg and decided heck with it anf gambled all day.Just got in.Broke again.I did get a phonecall from a friend from GA she said she is picking me up on Thursday to make sure i go to a meeting.Tomor is a new day another chance to start over.❤
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I’m sorry you had a challenging day but you are right. Tomorrow is a new day😊❤️❤️❤️
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stephann posted an update in the group
Community 2 months ago
Today is Day 1 again.I have had many day 1’s.However i was up all night long because of the affect gamb has on me.I wake up and say to myself omg what did i do yesterday.Gamb has completly destroyed my life.Gamb controls me.I am goin to try and take responsibility and stop this.Im makin everybody miserable around me.
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I hear you when you say Many, day1. I thought I was getting over my one ticket winning when I didn’t play it. It lasted for a day, and I tried to chase that too.
I can relate to waking up and not be able to sleep, or staying up all night. I’m sure we can all feel that pain you’re having because I have it and some here have it too.
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I’m thinking with every stride too stay away that’s one step closer too being away from gambling.
A person with a gambling addiction which we all here have needs too find new avenues too fill the gap that leaving gambling behind leaves.
So I guess and I’m speaking of myself here also a person needs too prioritize the people in their…[Read more] -
I slipped up too but I have more days of not gambling then days I have gambled since I started coming here.
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That’s really good Tina you are working at keeping your gambling down.
Clearly you are able too hold off. It took some time for me too get there and I am now which makes me really happy too have some Control because at one time I really couldn’t.
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stephann posted a new activity comment 2 months ago
Hi Jay.I can relate to all the feelings you described that gamb bring you.I myself gambled over the wkend losing everything i was running into grovery stores to cash checks to cash back to gamble.This went on all wkend.I told my husband i went to a GA mth on Sunday and i did not i went on a gamb binge instead.The GA mtgs can be tough to sit thru…[Read more]
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Meant to say i only got 2 yrs free from gamb in all those yrs.
I feel you. Ill be 40 this year and ive been a problem gambler since 18. Its exhausting to be honest, isnt it? I dont know about you but isolate a lot. I think we need to keep reaching out for support when we are vulnerable. Im on day 1 mate. 15 is a great start.
Its insidious.This is why i feel i am no different than any other addict.I also feel like im going to win and i never have won anything substantial.The store i typically would gamb at sold a 1 million dollar winner on the same tix i always buy.Like i just have absolutely no luck at all.I gamble until my last dollar is gone always!!
Changing your mindset helps… possibly find something else to replace the thinking ‘only’ of gambling and that ‘big win’ that never comes. Thinking that way and living constantly with disappointment after disappointment is draining not only of physical nature but your emotional and rational thinking. Remember every person likely on this…[Read more]