• Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 1 weeks, 1 days ago

    Ams20 this is just the beginning for you. Stop now or it’s going to get deeper! I mean like losing hundreds of thousands in a few years. Losing your house, your business everything! Stop now!

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    Jed when I lost everything , I also keep saying I’m going to stop. It never happens. We have an addiction. I’ve been trying to stop for the past 28 years. My last 3 years have been a nightmare. Only way I’m looking to quit for ever is I been looking how other people live a normal happy life, and I just got a new grand child. I’m going to quit no…[Read more]

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Stephann this is exactly my life with my parents. Unbelievable

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 weeks ago

    I keep falling off the wagon, I said I was going to quit going to casinos 3 years ago, I’m at the end of the rope in debt now. I didn’t have self control. So mad at myself. I wish I was getting better.
    Are you from Ontario? Looking for somebody to go to GA meetings with.

    • you are a good person just you gambled….
      have a shwoer and go for a coffee in a pace where there are no scratches of casinos and writer how much you wills ave by not going and the load off your mind it will be after you realize in 2 month youll have 1000’s more to spend on real things I have 700 in bank right now which is more than I’ve had for…[Read more]

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 weeks ago

    I say that all the time. Time flies when you don’t think about it. But I wish it was 2028 right now.

    • Good for you bigheart, 2028 is when you plan to be debt free? Good for you, I just started planning to pay off debt I haven’t started paying off my visa yet, im only making interest payments on my loan so no real payments yet on March 20 I plan on putting a chunk of my pay towards my visa

      • I spoke to the bank they say it’ll take 2 years to improve my credit score where I stand huh I wish it was already 2 years sigh

      • I keep falling off the wagon, I said I was going to quit going to casinos 3 years ago, I’m at the end of the rope in debt now. I didn’t have self control. So mad at myself. I wish I was getting better.
        Are you from Ontario? Looking for somebody to go to GA meetings with.

        • you are a good person just you gambled….
          have a shwoer and go for a coffee in a pace where there are no scratches of casinos and writer how much you wills ave by not going and the load off your mind it will be after you realize in 2 month youll have 1000’s more to spend on real things I have 700 in bank right now which is more than I’ve had for…[Read more]

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    Lisa… I say that!

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    At how I got lured in. Now I’m suffering.

    • They’ve gotten me like that also. Stopping is a lot of reasoning with one’s self. It’s obvious Jenny is doing that. It’s nice to have you people to chat with. For myself it’s a reinforcement of my choice to stop gambling.

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    CEOJAY your not alone

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 months, 3 weeks ago

    Is anybody from the Ottawa, Ontario area who would love to chat by texting. So we can help each other.

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 months, 4 weeks ago

    Buggy we’re all in the same situation. We need to realize we’re never going to get our money back. We keep chasing more and more. We’re going to end up killing ourselves. We need stop it together right now. I joined this group first week of December. I said I was going to stop. I fell off the wagon 8 times. Lost so much money that I could buy a…[Read more]

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 4 months ago

    That’s me. I have a far drive going home. I’m swearing to myself. That will never go back and I do and lose even more. I hate this addiction . I have no self control

    • I’ve stopped. I’ve stated over and over again.
      I give myself time away the longer I stay away the better I feel. I have three months now. I still think about going back but not as often and not as strong emotions. I tell myself the longer I stay away the less I will spend. I hope one day to have no desire at all to gamble. I’m not there but I wil…[Read more]

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 weeks ago

    Please stop now, $15,000 is nothing. If you don’t stop now it’s gets deeper and it becomes a nightmare. I’ve been gambling over 20 years, I’m $800,000 in debt. I keep chasing my loses. I have one good night then 6 bad nights. The chasing and time wasted at the casino makes you mentally crazy.

    • Thanks for your post…I’m down $18,000 & I see what could happen. I lose, it makes me sick, the next day, I’m wanting to go back and chase another win.

    • Kind advice bigheart!

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    Tmor
    I know what you mean. It’s so bad.

  • Bigheart4 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 1 weeks ago

    T dragon, I’m in the same boat. Sneaking into the house at 2 / 4am. Everybody asleep. Lying through my teeth. Everybody who has this awful addiction disease we all have similar stories. 2023 was my worst year. I kept on falling off the wagon. Back in March I lost everything. I cried, suffer anxiety couldn’t work. My body was dying. I never wan…[Read more]

    • There is a quote addiction starts with pain and ends with pain.
      Even without gambling life isn’t going to be perfect but it will be better.
      For myself I am taking one day at a time. It’s taken many times of staying away for me to get too where I am now. I believe stopping addiction is a process.
      A person needs to try and forgive themselves for…[Read more]

      • Well done Serenity, this gambling addiction is day by Day. Was on the site awhile ago, quit started gambling again. Trying to heal, and find positive outlets. Day 2 of Recovery. Wishing you well in your recovery !

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thanks for sharing Serenity. When I was a child, I grew up very poor. Dad was an alcoholic and gambler. He had poker games at home playing with big money. Once the Casino open up in the city. He started gambling there almost every second day. He lost everything, even his shirt on his back. Both of my parents were very abusive. The police was…[Read more]

    • Hello Bigheart4,

      Rather than thinking about HOW you were chosen, maybe it’s more constructive to focus on WHAT TO DO now that you are chosen. We may not be able to choose the set of cards we are dealt, but we can decide how we play them. Bigheart4 your past trauma is certainly unfortunate and it did affect your life, but its effect doesn’t have…[Read more]

    • Bigheart4 Thank you for sharing your story. You certainly have been through a lot. I think a person who has been through so much must have a great deal of empathy for others going through certain difficulties in life.
      I didn’t come from a wealthy family either quite poor. My lunches for school I felt weren’t worthy of eating even though I kno…[Read more]

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    Needhelp are you ok?

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    Today I’m sitting here thinking and thinking drinking a tea before heading into work. Why hell do I keep giving and giving money to the useless casinos. When there’s starving children over seas. People suffering from war. Innocent animals wandering the streets looking for food. I’m so mad at myself right now.

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 5 months, 4 weeks ago

    Sem that happens all the time. And it gets deeper and deeper. We can’t control our self’s. I have a hard time leaving the Casino. It’s so frustrating. Today was a day that I thought a lot. It’s tough. I have my ups and down. I just wish I can put this behind me and move on. Sometimes I tear up when I have thoughts in my mind.

    • Big heart it’s not going to be easy to put this behind yourself. It’s good that you are doing some deep thinking. I do also still quite often. Not when I’m busy though.

      I’m lucky right now I have my daughter and granddaughter keeping me company. I’d probably go out of my mind if I didn’t due too loneliness
      Part of my staying stopped is…[Read more]

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months ago

    Hi Patty. How are you?

  • Bigheart4 posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months ago

    I’m trying so hard to move on and not think about the past loses. To stop chasing my loses. I need to tell myself that it will get deeper.

    • kenl replied 6 months ago

      Thanks for your post / thoughts Bigheart
      The part of chasing loses / getting deeper reminded me of a paragraph in the Gamblers Anonymous yellow book read at meetings.
      It is a very true statement of where our addiction can and does take us if we continue.
      Take Care
      Ken L YBIR
      ” Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were real problem gamblers.…[Read more]

    • I understand it may be hard to accept the loses bigheart4 but do remind yourself that by not gambling today you are in a way making up for them. Try to do sth else when you feel like you can’t stop thinking about your loses so that you don’t get sucked back in with the dysfunctional belief that “only through gambling will I be able to make up for…[Read more]

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