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Hi. I am brand new to this. I called the gambling problem hotline about an hour ago and was provided this resource. I haven’t even told my husband and family yet that I have a problem. I just left the casino after advancing thousands of dollars that we don’t have in our account. I’m such a horrible person! I don’t even know how to tell them. They are all still sleeping and I don’t know how I’m gonna face them.
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Welcome TDragon
T dragon, I’m in the same boat. Sneaking into the house at 2 / 4am. Everybody asleep. Lying through my teeth. Everybody who has this awful addiction disease we all have similar stories. 2023 was my worst year. I kept on falling off the wagon. Back in March I lost everything. I cried, suffer anxiety couldn’t work. My body was dying. I never want to go through that again. My whole entire savings was gone. I had nothing left. I call for help. I was getting counseling every two weeks. I didn’t feel like the social worker understood this awful disease.
Around June I fell off the wagon again. I started using my credits that I payed off in March when I cash out my savings.
In September I went from playing the tables to playing the slots. I hit. $60,000. I said I was going to home and pay off debts and buy things I needed for the house. Few weeks later, I lost it all and plus. Plus meaning that I was so upset and I had very bad rage. I was at the casino almost everyday maxing all my credit cards.
November that’s when I found this site. And it has helped me so much because I have people to talk to and I’m not alone.
There’s not a day that I don’t what I did. I think so much that my head feels like it’s going to blow up.
What’s helping me is that. If I go gambling, I’m going to lose. Why go! I’m only going to be ahead in life like other normal people who don’t gamble. I see so many suffer there. I see so many people get escorted out because they lose so much money. I see people have panic attacks there. I see people crying there. I remember hearing a couple say that they will be eating Kraft dinner for awhile. I see people begging for money. See people fighting.
I hate the fact that everyone knows me there. And I had managers coming up to me and telling me that I look like a good hard working person. And that I shouldn’t be there. They get sad when they see me lose my hard working money Plus I don’t want to be known at a casino. All of this helps me stay away.
There is a quote addiction starts with pain and ends with pain.
Even without gambling life isn’t going to be perfect but it will be better.
For myself I am taking one day at a time. It’s taken many times of staying away for me to get too where I am now. I believe stopping addiction is a process.
A person needs to try and forgive themselves for the past. We can go back and change it. We have today but don’t look too far Just get through today.
Stopping gambling it will happen you just need to want it badly enough and believe in yourself. If a person does have a slip try to not make it too bad and keep trying. The longer a person can stay away the more that is saved. I’m not sure what it will be like in the future. I do know today. Is another day free of gambling.
Peace, love and joy!
Well done Serenity, this gambling addiction is day by Day. Was on the site awhile ago, quit started gambling again. Trying to heal, and find positive outlets. Day 2 of Recovery. Wishing you well in your recovery !
I am here ever day also Thank you for shar!
I really hate what this does to us. I truly feel where you’re coming from. And I hope you have the support you need to get through this.