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I am 67. My father shot himself four years ago. I found him. My husband had an affair and we divorced two years ago. I have had a gambling problem for several years but now much worse. My use of alcohol is now daily, at least two or three drinks a day. Gambling weekly, excessively. Both numb the pain. Draining my savings. Have had suicidal thoughts. Feeling so sad.
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Hey laylagirl…..thank you so much for your post. My Mom committed suicide when I was sixteen and I found her shot in the head in a pool of blood on the kitchen floor. I spent a good chunk of my life (I’m 53 now) trying to escape the pain by gambling and other self sabotaging addictions. But they only offer temporary relief, postpone the work and keep you stuck in a hamster wheel of suffering. I found a counselor that has helped me navigate through the pain and make peace with my past. Recovery does not happen overnight so please be patient and kind to yourself…..but you deserve a happy fulfilling life. I hope you find the courage to seek help and I wish you good days ahead. xo
Thank you for listening and caring. I am so ashamed. No one knows how bad it has become. I have thought about counseling recently and it may be the only answer for me. Thank you.
Many states offer free or low cost counseling for problem gamblers and their loved ones. If you live in Washington State I personally recommend Coastal Treatment Services….425-646-4406…. Take good care of yourself. Hugs
Hi Laylagirl
Glad you are reaching as you have been through some terrible times.
As Diamond said counseling and 12 step programs will help you get to a better place in life,
And as for suicide it is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. If you need to chat
please visit our chatroom. I try to be there every night around 11 pm est.
God Bless
Ken L Your Brother in Recovery
Thank you for listening and reaching out to me. I feel so alone and sad. It helps to know someone now knows what I am dealing with. Next step is a counselor.
Thank you for sharing. You’re not alone ❤️
Thank you
Hi Ladybug.
I’m sorry you are going through tuff times. I’m sorry you had major trauma you have endured. You are able too admit to yourself you at the time are in a problem. That’s a good chunk of the battle. It’s amazing too me what a grip gambling can have on a person. As I’ve come too realize it is a short term fix for what ails a person.
You are not alone in your struggles. Even this evening I felt like trying my luck but I resisted and didn’t. The end result for me is always the same. More money out. I’m not far from your age Thank you for sharing your story. There’s strength in knowing a person isn’t alone. Hugs.
Thank you. Glad you were able to resist. I had the urge today as well and this has already helped just talking about it. I resisted.
That’s awesome! I did well today also 🙂
Please know you are not alone. I recently opened up to my wife and told her I had been gambling AGAIN for the second time after stopping for a year. I got to the point of writing suicide notes for all of my family because I could not face what I did. It is the worst feeling I have ever had with no explanation as to why I did it knowing the end result. I started drowning my feelings in alcohol and just becoming severely depressed. I am now speaking to people that have been in similar situations and have a much clearer head. It will be a long road but one step at time ❤️