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    @betterme posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    I understand this. I don’t think of the consequences until I face not having money after another trip. Even when I win.. not long until I’m putting that money back. It’s truly very sad !

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    @betterme posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    I understand the frustration of losing what you’ve work hard for. I think we have all been there. I struggle with not being able to keep monies.. my own, my wins. It feels bad to be out of control. Be strong if stopping is your focus.

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    @betterme posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    I’m sorry to hear this. I do hope you get things back in order.

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    @betterme posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    I no longer think of it as me being a different person. Rather, I’m focusing on adjusting that person’s direction. I spent mostly “winnings” this time .. first I think, they were wins but really, they were not. I have lost so much @ the casino that I’m not sure I could call anything a win anymore. It would have been good to keep that money but…[Read more]

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    @betterme posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    How are you doing with the quitting? Are you getting support ? I’m working on damage control after going on a last binge and wondering how I could be so careless and irresponsible.

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    @betterme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 5 months ago

    This week I won and lost BIG at the casino. I thought after winning big, I’d be able to be focused and controlled. The win was solid. It was going to make the holidays fun.. then we decided to go back. I had been so happy to shop and share my good fortune. Mom and I went back .. so she can play. While waiting, I sat down and started playing s…[Read more]

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      Sheila replied 3 years, 5 months ago

      The worst thing to happen when I gamble, is when I win. My brain is just flooded with a need to win again. The losing feels physically painful. I feel sick. I’ve done the search for every last dollar I can get my hands on, just so I can keep playing. I’m planning on going back today, because I can steal my husbands stash. I do not want the hor…[Read more]

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        Jake Wright replied 3 years, 5 months ago

        That’s the problem as an addict we can’t stop, I think exactly the same way as you when I gamble

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          Sheila replied 3 years, 5 months ago

          I thought about having a drink earlier (I’m sober), but I didn’t want to spare the cash on anything other than gambling. Which is a unsustainable method of recovery from alcoholism.

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        Ken L replied 3 years, 5 months ago

        Have you never thought of finding some counseling ?
        When I hit my bottom I found a counselor and worked on my cognitive thinking
        My mind was so screwed I had to work on rewiring it and breaking my myths surrounding gambling’

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      Ken L replied 3 years, 5 months ago

      As they say there is never a BIG ENOUGH WIN for a compulsive gambler.

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        Sheila replied 3 years, 5 months ago

        I think the worst thing that ever happened in my gambling “career”, was a big win seven years ago. That euphoria changed my thinking permanently. I keep thinking I won because my mind cintrolled the machine through sheer willpower. Which is completely contrary to logic, but I have this delusion that I have a superpower to influence the alg…[Read more]

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        @betterme replied 3 years, 5 months ago

        This is so true ! I find myself thinking 🤔 why didn’t I just keep the winnings?? I have won enough to give me a decent cushion but I just go back and give it back! Serious 🧐 mental flaw!