Sheila posted an update in the group Community3 years, 5 months ago
I just finished day 2 of a gambling relapse. I feel so ashamed and sick with stress. I feel like I became a different person. I’ve lied and stole to get more money. I just feel sick.
I’ve done that before. I’ve spent my mortgage payment, this time I maxed out every source of money including stealing my husbands change jar. It is exhausting. I keep chasing my losses. I can’t get it out of my head, that the next bet will pay the big win, and I will be able to pay everything back. But, even if I won, I just can’t leave the Casino with money. I used to be able to. I really feel your pain Gabby. I’m so sorry for you.
I no longer think of it as me being a different person. Rather, I’m focusing on adjusting that person’s direction. I spent mostly “winnings” this time .. first I think, they were wins but really, they were not. I have lost so much @ the casino that I’m not sure I could call anything a win anymore. It would have been good to keep that money but it is gone now. Focus on the good things in life .. moving forward from losing is one of the toughest things. Hang in there !
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I gambled my entire pay check $2800
My credit cards are maxed
I just kept betting and betting
I’m exhausted
I’ve done that before. I’ve spent my mortgage payment, this time I maxed out every source of money including stealing my husbands change jar. It is exhausting. I keep chasing my losses. I can’t get it out of my head, that the next bet will pay the big win, and I will be able to pay everything back. But, even if I won, I just can’t leave the Casino with money. I used to be able to. I really feel your pain Gabby. I’m so sorry for you.
I no longer think of it as me being a different person. Rather, I’m focusing on adjusting that person’s direction. I spent mostly “winnings” this time .. first I think, they were wins but really, they were not. I have lost so much @ the casino that I’m not sure I could call anything a win anymore. It would have been good to keep that money but it is gone now. Focus on the good things in life .. moving forward from losing is one of the toughest things. Hang in there !