• Biggredd posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 4 months ago

    so what do you do when is is on your mind all the time i am in the middle of fighting for my marriage and all i think about is the slot machines and if i can win enough to keep playing not until i am broke do i worry about losing eveyone i care about

    • I have done things I never thought I would do, especially shitty things to my family. They don’t know I’ve been binge gambling this year. I go a couple of months, and just poof I am inside the Casino. It happens so fast. It is sickness, mental bullshit.

      • I understand this. I don’t think of the consequences until I face not having money after another trip. Even when I win.. not long until I’m putting that money back. It’s truly very sad !

    • I have been clean for almost 3 years and stopped because I was losing my marriage of 25 years. I totally understand. You can do it.

      • i think my husband and i are fighting over more than just gambling however i can stand me either my mother would have been ashamed of me since her father was also addicted to gambleing among other thing . but when our last fight went down it was because i felt bad becausse i knew we were broke like we live in a hotel and work for our room broke but i still spend what ever i win insted of tellinbg my husband that i won 1 thousand and we cant buy food now i told him i only won 400 so i didnt have to stop playing what am i supposed to do about that and when i take my winnigs off its all fine to spend on stupid shit but then the reality of me wanting to play again and i cant get it out of my head and i will spend my last dime to try and win anything to play longer so i can win big i mean i am thinking about it right now and i am working and on here waiting for a meeting but this is harder than drinking and drugs i quit them on my own but i cant this no matter how broke i am it sucks to feel helpless againest some thing i created on my ownto help feed my grand kids and now who what babies hungry i am broke and mo remorse at all untill it is too late what do i do to destrac