My name is Raymond I am a grateful recovering compulsive gambler. My last bet was on the 24th January 2009. I had tried many times to stop before that date, but always ending up in the same situation, cause stopping gambling without working hard on my own I always somehow ended gambling.
I started gambling at a very young age. When I was a boy, I remember going to bingo with mum who was a compulsive gambler and as a single mum had her life very difficult. It took me more than 30 years of gambling to finally admit that I have a problem and I can’t live this life anymore. I became a very angry person and could not understand who I became. Gambling was everything in my life and came before my lovely wife and children. During my time of gambling I slowed down few years when my children were growing up, but when I had the opportunity to open up my own carpentry factory and start doing good money, that was a big trigger for me and the beast in me took over my whole life.
The more money I was making, the more I gambled and as the years passed I became very sick. In 2006, I had to sell my share in the factory and I ended up after 10 years of hard work with nothing. I knew I had to do something but I had no hope for me. It took me 3 more years of pain and misery to finally go for help and admit that I am no longer in power of my life. I have been going to GA and sites like this and found help and wise people who are ready to give the best advice. Now it is up to me to stay in recovery and I have all the tools, hopefully, that I keep using, for the benefit of myself and my family.
My life today is for sure much better, financially, emotionally and spiritually. I have been told to live “each day at a time” and so far so good.
Miracles do happen!