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Hi,
New here. I recently won a hefty jackpot online and cashed out without attempting to see how far my luck would go. Which as a gambler you may be able to appreciate.
Had that been the end of the story I wouldn’t be here. There is so much going on in my life that puts an immense amount of pressure on me. Not only financially but mentally. A lot of these issues I can’t speak to anyone in person about for a few reasons.
A few years ago I walked into a GA group which was mostly men. Straight away I was pointed to the NA group as if I were in the wrong place. I don’t even do drugs. Imagine the surprise to learn I walked into the right group afterall. That said I guess it’s thought to be a male issue. Well I am more proof that isn’t the case. My gambling story ends like most but I have had quite a bit of luck to make me an elite gambler. Which doesn’t really mean anything in Canada. I wish I could have used it to my benefit or turned it around when given the chance. Multiple chances really but then it wouldn’t be an addiction and parts of my situation seem to be pretty rare.
I’m sure you can relate to the way it changes your perception of money. Thousands of dollars seem like pennies. It’s not until you lose it all you appreciate money a little more but even then the brain still has a warped view of it. I don’t even get thrills from gambling. It really feels like a job but the rest is too complicated to insert all in this box.
My gambling has provided a lot of income, paid off the debts I’ve gotten because of gambling as well. That balance I used to have has depleted and just been making poor choices that diminish quality of life. I figured maybe I should reach out to others who can better relate than to just be judged by someone who hasn’t a clue what this lifestyle is like.