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It is not even about the money for me anymore. It is about the experience. The social interaction. The thrill of progressively betting to a big amount and wondering if (when) you will get burned. The feeling of a casual player saying, “You’re betting your winnings,” and me saying, “Let’s not talk about that right now.” Living. For the MOMENT. When I should be living. For the FUTURE. And seeing my future being burned to ash by a house that ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS wins. But I CHASE it. Because I have little else for which to live. But I am NOT fulfilling my purpose in this world by giving in to moments. And I always remember my PURPOSE in this world. And, by God, despite what I do to rebel, to defy, to do whatever I want in a MOMENT, I remember why I’m here. And at the end of the day, I know that, despite all my flaws, I am DOING THAT. I am always made a way, even when there is no way. And thank GOD that His most excellent way always, ALWAYS, benefits me. God, let me remember that forever. The next time I think about throwing money at a TEMPORARY experience. Be still. Know. That you will have strength to resist anything this world throws at you.