• Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Its good that you recognized it but I’m sorry you went back. I’ve done that so many times. This last stent last week just really put my families finances in a big mess ( it was already in a mess from and I made it 100xworse .
    The house always will win with us because it’ll never be enough. All it takes it one decent win then like you I put that…[Read more]

    • Thanks for sharing your story. Gambling has put me in some bad places as well and brought me shame and regret. I want to overcome this thing once and for all.

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Very well said Serenity.
    🙏🙏💕

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    I relate… the things I’ve done would sound absolutely crazy to someone without an addiction.. it’s completely irrational behavior . Yet when I’m doing it it’s like I’m in a haze, nothing around me gets my attention. I’m 50 with 2 wonderful grown kids and a very tolerant husband who works his butt off and that’s not enough
    🙁
    I’ve lied so m…[Read more]

    • Come clean to your husband. It sounds that you have a wonderful man. I think it will really helps that you have that comveesation with him. I was so scared to tell my husband what I have done but hiding it from him was eating me away. I will pray for you and everyone on here that we all find that courage to start over and have the courage to make…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Thank you 🙂 you sound like you are on the right path and really motivated👏🏼👏🏼
    Im still trying to clean up the mess I made 🙁 It’s definitely a weight off coming clean to my husband but the financial ruin I caused is going to take time to get over 🙁 I need to learn patience which is not a trait I seem to have 🤦🏼‍♀️ It’s the quick fix I wan…[Read more]

    • This site really helped me more than I could ever known. good thing I listened to one of those chat representatives from NCPG to check out this site.

      • I have a question. Since this is the first year a have gamble, when tax season comes, do you have to report your gambling activity even though you loss more than you won?

      • I just stumbled upon it and am so glad I did. The knot in my stomach and stress eats at me and being alone makes it harder. I’ll be happy when my kids are out of school…it’s harder to get myself into trouble when they’re home. But then I look at their faces and can’t help but feel guilty so there’s that…

      • Meg, I don’t live in the US so don’t know regulations there. In Canada we don’t declare unless one makes a living with it I believe.

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Same for you Meg . If it’s allowed you can even FB me🤷🏼‍♀️ not sure if that’s ok.. but if so that may be easier.

    • Thank you. Sadly, I don’t have FB, I’m not really onto social media never was. Is there like a private message on here? I am really new to this so I don’t know

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Im day 3 as well and I keep pacing like I don’t know what to do with myself … partially because I feel like I’ve given them so much money (last week literally put me in negative $$ and my husband didn’t know) I want to win it back. Rationally though we know that won’t happen. I keep trying to think of that 🙁
    I know it doesn’t stop the urge bu…[Read more]

    • Thank you for your reply. I have the idea of winning the last losses out of my head as I did come clean. It broke me mind but definitely a weight lifted. Tonight I messaged gamcare on WhatsApp as I needed a quick response. I’m now feeling a little better for now and at ease that I can go to sleep peacefully 🥰 I’m here to talk if you need to ven…[Read more]

      • I think that is our struggle. To win back what we lost . Chasing those losses but we always ends up losing even more. Today was a good day for me. I thought about playing this morning but I think what motivated me was my convo with my husband last night and that I had my prenatal visit today. Its never gonna be easy for us but I believe baby steps…[Read more]

        • This is my first day here and I found this thread and wanted to cry. It feels so isolating having these thoughts and having no one to relate to. I can’t stop thinking about winning back what I’ve lost…when does that stop?

      • Thank you 🙂 you sound like you are on the right path and really motivated👏🏼👏🏼
        Im still trying to clean up the mess I made 🙁 It’s definitely a weight off coming clean to my husband but the financial ruin I caused is going to take time to get over 🙁 I need to learn patience which is not a trait I seem to have 🤦🏼‍♀️ It’s the quick fix I wan…[Read more]

        • This site really helped me more than I could ever known. good thing I listened to one of those chat representatives from NCPG to check out this site.

          • I have a question. Since this is the first year a have gamble, when tax season comes, do you have to report your gambling activity even though you loss more than you won?

          • I just stumbled upon it and am so glad I did. The knot in my stomach and stress eats at me and being alone makes it harder. I’ll be happy when my kids are out of school…it’s harder to get myself into trouble when they’re home. But then I look at their faces and can’t help but feel guilty so there’s that…

          • Meg, I don’t live in the US so don’t know regulations there. In Canada we don’t declare unless one makes a living with it I believe.

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Im really happy your husband was able to understand and be supportive. Of course he will be upset but it sounds like you have a good man. I too think about gambling through out the day . It’s hard being home, like you I’m trying to keep myself busy. I thought of picking up a craft. Something simple I can do. I saw this YouTube video of a woman mak…[Read more]

    • Thank you. If you need someone to talk to just hit me up on here . We don’t know each other but I feel like we are connected somehow. And knowing that you’re not alone in this really helps. Baby steps but I know we can do this.

    • Somethin else you may try Scab123 is painting …You may think you don’t have any talent there just as I did…. but decided a few years ago to go and buy just some inexpensive paint and canvases etc. and try… I too watched videos and improved greatly.. so now I buy a bit more expensive paints….Serenity does this as well I do nature… like…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Amen and Thank you so much❤️🙏🙏
    I have found i lost my spiritual side in this mess. I want to believe that God is real and merciful. I just get so fought up in my own head. I so appreciate any prayers from believers as I know deep inside there is something or someone bigger then us❤️
    I woke up to all the transactions from Memorial Day weekend…[Read more]

    • YW and TY. Trust me, I have been where you are. It’s hard to feel God’s presence when you’re feeling down on yourself. But, He’s always with us. It is His promise and He keeps his promises. My heart goes out to you. I know how it feels to check your account and it’s in the negative. It hurts. Your husband loves you and he will forgive me.…[Read more]

      • One day at a time it is. 🙏🏻

        • GM Ladies, I hope you both slept well. I slept pretty good. I’m feeling kind of down as today would have been the day I would have received that $5600.00. I lied and told my husband that the gaming website is validating the win to make sure there was no fraud involved. Of course, he believed me. IHe is such an amazing man. I don’t deserve…[Read more]

          • I feel you on this one. Whenever I see my win/loss statement, I just break down and cry and tell myself how stupid I am. Across 4 casino apps that I had, I could easily made $50k-60k winnings if only I had the courage to stop. I won a lot but I just kept going until I lost all my winnings and lost some more. I feel disappointment for myself. I…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Hi Meg just seeing how you are? My account is overdrawn today and I’m just so anxious. I cannot wait to just end this cycle and get my life back !
    Hope you are ok!

    • Hi. I just got back from my prenatal visit. Baby is doing great ( Thank God ). I prayed so hard last night that no harm will go my baby’s way. I am just done causing damage and harm to my family. My husband is very supportive, he was mad at what I did, we had a long conversation moving forward. I really believe I need to get my shit together, t…[Read more]

      • Im really happy your husband was able to understand and be supportive. Of course he will be upset but it sounds like you have a good man. I too think about gambling through out the day . It’s hard being home, like you I’m trying to keep myself busy. I thought of picking up a craft. Something simple I can do. I saw this YouTube video of a woman mak…[Read more]

        • Thank you. If you need someone to talk to just hit me up on here . We don’t know each other but I feel like we are connected somehow. And knowing that you’re not alone in this really helps. Baby steps but I know we can do this.

        • Somethin else you may try Scab123 is painting …You may think you don’t have any talent there just as I did…. but decided a few years ago to go and buy just some inexpensive paint and canvases etc. and try… I too watched videos and improved greatly.. so now I buy a bit more expensive paints….Serenity does this as well I do nature… like…[Read more]

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    Btw the reply on the thread starts getting very sm for some reason and I cannot see what I’m writing . I apologize for any mistakes in spelling or grammar 🤦🏼‍♀️

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    From your mouth to God’s ears!🙏 Please let’s help each other🙏

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    I completely relate.. that’s we we have a problem. Others would be able to walk away but at this point we have lost so much that we want to get it back, not to mention the adrenaline rush of a win (which doesn’t come often).
    I feel so sad but I’m so glad that I came here and found 2 people that understand. You truly are not alone Meg❣️

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    Maybe all 3 of us are here for a reason, the same day with similar stories… we can support eachother🙏🙏 I know that I will be facing a big challenge in the next week when all these debts show up.. I want to run away and like you both feel I’ve let everyone down and they deserve better … but we are moms and I know I wouldn’t want my mom to ever fe…[Read more]

    • I know exactly how you feel. Chasing the losses is what it got us into this mess. Whenever I see I am winning I just keep playing more and more until I start losing. Even today, I felt sick to my stomach when I lost all my winnings and kept taking out money from my bank account and credit card. I just couldn’t believe it. I feel like a d…[Read more]

      • I completely relate.. that’s we we have a problem. Others would be able to walk away but at this point we have lost so much that we want to get it back, not to mention the adrenaline rush of a win (which doesn’t come often).
        I feel so sad but I’m so glad that I came here and found 2 people that understand. You truly are not alone Meg❣️

    • I totally agree with you. And I understand the trepidation of facing your unpaid debts. I used to experience anxiety going to the mailbox, fearful what may have come. I now receive a copy of my mail before it comes, and my heart races when I check the website to see what has been uploaded. Gambling has pretty much ruled and rained my life. My…[Read more]

      • From your mouth to God’s ears!🙏 Please let’s help each other🙏

      • Btw the reply on the thread starts getting very sm for some reason and I cannot see what I’m writing . I apologize for any mistakes in spelling or grammar 🤦🏼‍♀️

  • Csab123 posted a new activity comment 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    I could have written your post.
    I’m in a bad place mentally. I’ve pretty much destroyed all our finances and it’s due to my gambling problem. I just keep chasing my losses. This weekend was the worse and I’ve been in my room crying just asking myself how I can be so stupid!!! I won then again put it back plus all our checking account money t…[Read more]

    • You guys are not alone. Feeling so embarrassed and worthless at the moment. Currently pregnant too. I just don’t know what to do

      • Meg, I’m concerned that you’re going through this while pregnant. I am praying for you and your precious baby. Lean on God for strength. He will protect you both. Godspeed…

    • Thank you so much for replying to my post. I truly appreciate it. It does comfort me that I am not in this struggle alone. I am so glad to hear you are not gambling now. I didn’t gamble at all today. It will only depress me more if I lose as it takes hours to amass $5970.00, unless you hit a jackpot which rarely happens. I spent the day…[Read more]

      • Thank you, I will pray for you too. I gambled today and I hit my rock bottom. I know the feeling of lying to your husband because I have done that but eventually told him today what I did and how much I loss. I am really embarrassed and can’t even focus . I just hope I do not put so much stressed on my baby because thats the last thing I want. P…[Read more]

      • Maybe all 3 of us are here for a reason, the same day with similar stories… we can support eachother🙏🙏 I know that I will be facing a big challenge in the next week when all these debts show up.. I want to run away and like you both feel I’ve let everyone down and they deserve better … but we are moms and I know I wouldn’t want my mom to ever fe…[Read more]

        • I know exactly how you feel. Chasing the losses is what it got us into this mess. Whenever I see I am winning I just keep playing more and more until I start losing. Even today, I felt sick to my stomach when I lost all my winnings and kept taking out money from my bank account and credit card. I just couldn’t believe it. I feel like a d…[Read more]

          • I completely relate.. that’s we we have a problem. Others would be able to walk away but at this point we have lost so much that we want to get it back, not to mention the adrenaline rush of a win (which doesn’t come often).
            I feel so sad but I’m so glad that I came here and found 2 people that understand. You truly are not alone Meg❣️

        • I totally agree with you. And I understand the trepidation of facing your unpaid debts. I used to experience anxiety going to the mailbox, fearful what may have come. I now receive a copy of my mail before it comes, and my heart races when I check the website to see what has been uploaded. Gambling has pretty much ruled and rained my life. My…[Read more]

          • From your mouth to God’s ears!🙏 Please let’s help each other🙏

          • Btw the reply on the thread starts getting very sm for some reason and I cannot see what I’m writing . I apologize for any mistakes in spelling or grammar 🤦🏼‍♀️