Fading away’s story

My gambling started in 2005. I innocently went to an American casino with my husband.  We laughed and thought it very boring.  Now that I think about it, there were previous life crushing events that occurred over a period of years before I ever gambled.  I lost my brother through colon cancer, lost my step father and basically took my mother under my wing.  I remember the stress of work, the pressure from my husband, who was not happy that I spent a lot of time with my mother.

Around the time that I was feeling all the pressure and feeling pulled into  different directions, a local casino was built in our city.  I went at lunch hour during work, then before work and then after work.  Next thing I knew, I was putting my whole pay cheque into trying to win back my money, then my savings went down to zero, then my home was remortgaged three times over.  As you can see I was addicted.

Needless to say, I am sitting here ten years later dealing with the wreckage of my addiction, bewildered, scared and not sure what my future will be. I have sought counseling at our local mental health centre and was referred to this site. I am gamble free for a while now, and will take my life one day at a time and will deal with the wreckage of my gambling as it arises.

Thank you for letting me share, hope this will help someone out there.

Fading away