OCTOBER 30 Reflection for the Day
When I’m motivated by pride – by bondage of self – I become partly or even wholly blind to my liabilities and shortcomings. At that point, the last thing I need is comfort. Instead I need an understanding friend in the Gamblers Anonymous Program – a friend who’ll unhesitatingly chop a hole through the wall my ego has built so that the light of reason can once again shine through.
Do I take time to review my progress, to spot-check myself on a daily basis, and to promptly try to remedy my wrongs?
Today I Pray
I pray that the group – or just one friend – will be honest enough to see my slippery manifestations of pride and brave enough to tell me about them. My self-esteem was starved for so long that, with my first successes in the GA Program, it may swell to the gross proportions of self-satisfaction. May a view from outside myself give me a true picture of how I am handling the triumph of my abstinence – with grateful humility or with pride.
Today I Will Remember
Self-esteem or self-satisfaction?