• ANewDay posted a new activity comment 2 years ago

    I can relate. I would come up with all sorts of excuses my friends were planning something and I could not afford to join in. I know they suspected something, but I was very ashamed to admit my lack of control.
    As of now, I have someone, only one person that knows of my addiction, my sister. And I am accountable to her. She asks constantly, and…[Read more]

  • ANewDay posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 2 years ago

    Good morning family, It’s been 4 days since I self excluded. Its hard to find things to focus on when I have idle time. I have been journaling daily, to see where my triggers are. I can remember only the highs of gambling, and these were sooooo infrequent. I always lost. Any of my win/loss statements from online casinos show this.
    I was never…[Read more]

  • ANewDay posted a new activity comment 2 years ago

    Hi Moni, If you want to reach out to me, and talk about it, I am here. I know the feeling. When you have the urge, try to reach out to me. I can tell you I am on this journey as well. I am broke now, even though I earn a very good salary. All my friends are gearing up for retirement, and I cannot even think about it, because of the destructive…[Read more]

  • ANewDay posted a new activity comment 2 years ago

    Hi Lorel,

    Yes would love to chat, thank you. As you know it’s difficult to explain to a non-gambler what the trials and tribulations are.

  • ANewDay posted a new activity comment 2 years ago

    I did the same, relapsed last night with my rent money. And I was up, but for some reason, I don’t walk away. I kept playing watching the machine turn colder and colder. I self excluded today. And joined this site. I am fed up with sabotaging my life.

    I am here if you need to talk. Please reach out. Not sure how this site works, but I am here…[Read more]

    • A New Day, it was 8 months ago when you replied and yet I managed to still continue gambling. I fell numb right now, just gamble my whole paycheck and Christmas bonus. I hope you’re doing much better than I am. Happy Holidays.

  • ANewDay posted a new activity comment 2 years ago

    I am right there with all of you. I have zero available credit, owe thousands of dollars out, my pay is already spent before I get it. Time was, that I would use online banking before my payroll check was even deposited.
    If I look back, my problem began when I was caregiving for relatives. Working full time, no social life, living in their house,…[Read more]

  • ANewDay posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 2 years ago

    Hello Everyone,

    I found this group from a podcast and joined today. I also took another right step and self excluded from online gaming today. I am deeply in debt, and have to admit to my landlord that my rent will be late this month. I am worried about possible eviction. It will be paid, albeit 8 days late.
    The rational side of my brain…[Read more]

    • I hear you. Sorry you feel this way. I hope you can get out all of this mess soon. I am here if you want to vent. Sometimes we need that. We know we are wrong and sometimes we just need someone to listen to us.

      • Hi Lorel,

        Yes would love to chat, thank you. As you know it’s difficult to explain to a non-gambler what the trials and tribulations are.