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Today I have the urge to gamble my last $20 but I have gamban on so I can’t, I also self excluded my self at the websites I frequent so I have no access at work, my brain is looking for stimulation from betting I don’t know if this feeling will ever go away.
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I decided I will only keep $100 cash on me so I wouldn’t be tempted to spend it on gambling, I owe so much money it’ll take me years to pay back, let this be a lesson learned for myself how hard I have to bounce back, I asked for extra shifts at work so I get full time hours, fortunately this paycheck I will get 70 hours, im hoping for overtime hours which only happens when someone calls in sick and noone is available. This paycheck I will only keep $113 for myself but that’s how it should be, next paycheck I hope I get to pay more towards my debt.
Good for you Jenny! Keep it up
I’m trying to figure out if I can do this
Jenny it does get easier I wouldn’t say completely easy but for sure it gets much easier to stay away.
It will come into your mind less the urges will subside to a point where it’s much easier to make a choice to stay stopped. You need to give yourself some time.
Try to find other things that spike your interest. A good movie talking with people, a hobby cleaning out a closet if you’ve been putting it off building a bird house pretty much anything you see as productive and can be proud of what you are accomplishing. If gambling was so wonderful you wouldn’t be looking for a way out. ❤️
I understand. I fight with urges, too. My triggers seem to be having a stressful or frustrating day at work. That’s when I especially feel the urge to gamble. I banned myself for 1 year from the casinos that are nearby… online gambling isn’t legal in my state. The casinos I can play at are quite a drive- 1-2 hours one-way, so I can’t just jump in the car after work & go play- like I did for years.
I’ve experienced feelings all over the board since my self ban. Depression, anger, frustration…wondering “why did I ban myself?” I have played the slots a few times at the Elk’s lodge. You can’t collect your winnings immediately… have to wait until the next week to get your envelope of cash. So that’s a downer. They also aren’t the most modern slot machines- so it’s not as much fun for me. However, I can still get very into my addiction while playing them! I still spend more money than intended, etc…
I’m blessed and lack of money isn’t the problem. It’s feeling the loss of control. It feels good in the moment, but I’m often mad at myself later. Then, if my husband confronts me about it I become furious! That’s part of my addiction, too, I suppose.
I really, really like to gamble. I just don’t have an “off” switch. And that’s not good. I don’t believe God wants me wasting the fruits of labor. And that’s what I’m doing when I gamble.
This is like quitting smoking… the urge to smoke will occur whether or not I smoke… I think it’s the same with gambling. The urge will pass whether or not I give in to it. I have to choose to make my pain count.