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I’m having a hard time quitting gambling, I look for any excuse to check my phone and the websites for gambling sites but I installed gamban so I can’t. Yesterday I realized we have a computer at the community break room at work and since noone uses it I end up going in and checking the websites. I haven’t spent any money on it yet since I don’t have any but I have a feeling that I will when the next paycheck comes. I work 3 times a week and told myself I’ll allow myself to gamble at work since I only have 30 minutes break. I don’t know if I’ll stick around after work to use the computer, I have a feeling I will. The computer is in a private room so not many use it. I’ve been cheating on myself with quitting gambling I look for devices that don’t have the gamban. On the 17 of Feb I gambled on a device that didn’t have gamban on and lost all my money,. I tell myself I’ll only put in $20, then after I lose ill say another $20, then another $20 then another $20 till all my money is gone, I still want the chase. When I check my phone I think it’s just habit and it feels nice, it’s like I’m hunting for something so it’s like a security blanket, if I don’t check I get anxious, I hate that feeling and I don’t like it. I think work can save me because in a way that’s like hunting for money just like gambling. I think I’ll put in all my energy into working.
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I signed up for overtime hours at work but that only happens when we’re short staffed and right now we are overstaffed but we’ll see
I’m not allowed to use the internet during work but on my break I can, so for 30 minutes I can. So that’s not as bad as daily and hours
Try removing yourself from your work environment if the computer makes it possible to gamble. Join co-workers for a work meal, pick a restaurant that is further from your workplace, etc. The idea is to make it harder for you to access anything that enables you to gamble.
Hi Jenny
I’m sorry too hear you are struggling to stay away from gambling.
I did read you are seeing a Therapist. That’s great.
The first time I went it was for a different reason than gambling. It was family therapy. My first session alone with her on the drive there I told myself I’m not mentioning my gambling problem.
When the Therapist asked me to tell her about myself that was the first thing I told her lol that I have a gambling problem.
Talking with her did help me.
It seems that most of have to learn the hard way and that’s so unfortunate.
You mentioned putting $20 in then another and so on.
I’ve done exactly the same thing in the past. Most times till I ran out of money or had the sense to keep enough money for food till I knew when I’d have money again.
The suffering gambling causes is immense.
You mentioned you are able to access sites from your work place. This is a leap of faith. And a friendly suggestion.
If you have accounts open self exclude yourself before you have access to money again. Take as long as a self exclusion as you dare. The longer the better.
I know exactly how you are feeling and the control gambling has over a person.
I’ve had nightmares of playing slots in my sleep.
The chase will more than likely draw you deeper into debt.
I know all the wrong choices I have made. I hope you can make better choices than myself and be stronger quicker than I was. I hate to see anyone suffer. And as far as I’m concerned that’s the road gambling takes a person down.
My hopes are with you be kind to yourself ❤️
Also no matter what we are all human I’ve tried over and over again to get where I am today. I just hope there’s a short cut for you!
I’ve been there too this past week I had no money and I just kept checking my phone like something was going to randomly appear.As hard it is to resist you can be strong Jenny and make it through the day of work without touching that computer or even gambling, it’s heavy burden to have on our shoulders of wanting to gamble all the time but we all have our our pace that we can overcome it you just gotta stay strong and can’t let our setbacks set us further away from our goal of quitting.I also wouldn’t wanna risk using your computer at work to gamble just cause you wouldn’t want to lose your job over gambling at work on company internet etc. just gotta focus uo get your through the day and think by working and getting extra hours you can save money too cause we all fell into the trap of just trying to win a couple bucks now we are just trying to get high off the rush and hope for a win that may make back our losses but If we put in the time and effort we can do that in a different way.(sorry I’m not really the greatest at this kinda thing but hope you can take the good out of my msg and use it for motivation).
How are you doing buggy?