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I woke up this morning forgetting that I hadn’t gambled yesterday. It took me a minute. Normally I wake up with anxiety and guilt, and am so used to that pattern that when I realized I didn’t have to feel it this morning it was an amazing relief. It’s not complete absolution for the bad decisions I’ve made, or the financial losses I’ve incurred, but wow, what I wonderful feeling that today, at least, I haven’t made it worse. I checked my bank account online, and the numbers were the same as yesterday. I am grateful. Today, thank you Tara for asking, I feel hopeful. I’m going to go for a long walk and enjoy that feeling. I’m going to take a deep breath.