• Lovelyt posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 1 years, 1 months ago

    Feeling like I’m at my lowest . Tired of being a failure . I continue to let this gambling win smh . I’m not recognizing the person im becoming . I continue to let my kids down and that’s what’s hurting more . I don’t get to see any money from my check , I stopped doing fun stuff with my kids , I stopped providing like I always have. I’ve cried my last tear ! I loss my last dollar !! I just want my life back

    • I can feel your pain truely. You are not a failure. It sounds like you are a very caring loving father remember that. This addiction has taken you over. Deep down you know you are a good person and would do anything for your kids. I also have felt like you a failure and guilty but we are here which means we don’t want this addiction taking hold of us anymore. Make yourself important once again. Think about the person you respected and want to be again. Think about all the things you want to do with your kids and buy them. How much pleasure you get from spending the time with them doing fun things together. Buy yourself something that you that you have wanted for ages when you can and see how that makes you feel. It feels like a long road ahead. One step at a time, like me I know you will succeed, make something else more important than gambling. 😊

    • Lovelyt I hear and feel your pain.
      For me part of gambling was the hope for a better life. Not really realizing I already had a decent life. I had perfectly good intentions. The casinos/gambling institutions have all the people gambling working against each other and we don’t or at least I didn’t acknowledge that. It’s on such a large scale. One person out of 10,000 probably comes ahead and after all is said and done probably not even that one person
      It’s so sad how it’s so easy to get caught up into and the strength it takes to stay away.
      Good people sometimes don’t make the best decisions for themselves. Myself included. I’m learning from my mistakes.
      I think every person no matter what the addiction has a time of healing from regrets, to a degree loss of self esteem, finances that need to get back on track and more.
      I’m a few days short of not placing a bet for a month. I have the odd moment that gambling crosses my mind. There was never a gain in it for myself. I’m just not doing it.
      And I wish the same strength for you This site is a good place to seek support. Hugs❤️