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Well I keep trying to have a day 1 without gambling and having to reset. I self excluded from a lot of apps and currently all are maxed on limits I set for myself or self excluded. This has become a habit while watching TV, it’s ridiculous. I came clean a few months ago and stopped for a few months and started up again. I promised my husband I would never go back or relapse, which looking at this now was a really hard thing to promise. I really thought I was done. We started to build some money in the bank and I already bet away all the extra we were holding. Just when we started to climb out. He hasn’t caught what I have done in the last 15 days, and I can’t tell him. But still I’m really upset with myself for self excluding and not being able to play today. Active addiction. I hate to post this for those of you in recovery, but it’s just where I’m at. Self-exclusion will expire for different apps at different times, but every time it opens I lose hundreds more. The worst part is the things my kids can’t do or have because I wasted our extra, and sometimes even more. I have got to get a handle on this and get to that Day 1.