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408 days since the last time I gambled online. I did the self exclusion…it was definitely a cold Turkey way of handling my out of control habit. Gambling in a casino was never a consideration for me. Online however, was just so easy. Lately, I am feeling the pull to actually go into a casino. I have not indulged. I am just not sure where the desire is coming from, trying to dig deep inside myself to figure that out. I added up how much money I won the six months previous to quitting. That was an eye opener. To have won so much and have nothing but large debt to pay off was a huge eye opener. I truly think gambling was mind numbing for me and a way to self sooth.
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I’m similar when something is really bothering me and there’s been some serious things. I believe I try and numb myself out by gambling . Nothing like me torturing myself when I’m already down.
I hope you decide not too go into the casino I managed too get away from there but it did take self exclusion I Congo back now but haven’t for several years.
Congratulations on your 408 days away!
First of all : CONGRATULATIONS. 408 days. That is absolutely amazing. For what it may be worth, I am incredibly proud of you and I HOPE with all my heart to be saying that same thing 400 days from now. I am on day 8. And you give me hope. And inspiration.
I do believe that we all have this weird Self Destruct button inside of us. It’s almost like when things are going really good, our kinda can’t cope so we instinctively ruin it. Just to get back on a familiar path.
Here’s the thing though – our brain will make a new path. A healthy one. We just have to train it to do that. And 408 days in- you have. You absolutely do not need to give in to an urge you don’t really want. You have 100% got this and you already know it.
Thank you for being such a hope dealer. I will remember you being 408 days in when I drive home from work and am tempted to turn into the casino. Your story will keep me strong. I hope it will keep you strong as well.
Wow great work and insight to stay away. From the beast
I am super happy that I am able to give you hope. Hope will keep you going ❤️
It is exactly that for me, a soothing distraction and hoping for a win. as I have triggers and depressed. When triggered there are times I can rationalize and think NO. Other times not.
Still fighting the “Beast” so I am able to “always” realize , gambling is not the answer. Easier said thsn done.
No truer words than “easier said than done”. I have always had a food addiction. When my Dad passed, the food didn’t sooth me. Gambling did though. Then I did the self exclusion and turned back to food. Then because my weight was so out of control, I had bariatric surgery. Talk about cold Turkey. So then I couldn’t eat OR gamble so turned to online shopping. It was at that point I realized I HAVE A SERIOUS PROBLEM lol. Anyway..it hasn’t been easy. It has been a down right daily struggle. The beast is inside is us…and it can be all consuming. We have to find the strength somewhere inside us to push it away. I wish you much strength ❤️