DR1130 posted an update in the group Community2 years, 4 months ago
Hello all. First time using this site. Really just need people to talk to. This addiction is eating my life away. For the second time. Had a major issue 4-5 years ago. Came back last two months and destroying my life.
I hear you LOUD and CLEAR… Been there and done that! From your little profile photo, I’ll assume you are into ‘sports bets?’
That’s just the “preference,” as the disease of addiction has many faces—gambling, drugs, alcohol, porn, etc.
I am not trying to scare anyone or YOU; I advocate and mentor many from this disease, and I never “sugar coat” this addiction or recovery. My 2nd relapse resulted in my 2nd failed suicide attempt; I think my Higher Power (God) was trying to tell me something. He told me I had a higher purpose in my life. Some detours can be examples of when losing control over gambling? We can never get it back, no matter how much time has passed. It is a one-way ride to NOWHERE, pile up debt again, and has opened the door to all those cravings, urges triggers, and insanity floods back into our life.
I tell my friends I mentor, “WHAT has happened within your life that could cause you to go back out?”
It will often lead you to the root or underlying issue, to the WHY you went back out and gambled.
Could it be unfinished recovery work? Falling back into “Old Habits and Behaviours?” A life event? Any disappointments?
You may find the answer and work on it if you think about it. Your life is worth way more than gambling. Stick around this site for a while, and you’ll begin to be supported by many amazing people here. It’s a safe place to be open and transparent without being judged. Your not alone, and please check out the resources listed here.
Just never give up…
Cat
Thank you for the response.
I don’t even know how this photo uploaded. Which I didn’t do on my own. But used it prior.
Yes sports gambling is my problem that I fell back into.
I personally know better, but this is something that I can’t get past. It’s been four very good years in between. Months ago finally had my life together in such a positive manner, but out of nowhere in September / October started to fall into this rabbit hole & affecting those around me. Ruining relationships. Causing myself to be so unhealthy. Rarely eat, don’t fully sleep.
You mentioned suicide attempt. I’ve googled that this week. But something I can’t come to do. I absolutely do need support or having conversations currently to get over this.
Again, I fully understand. Please feel free to email me anytime. Are you in the USA? Or a different country. May I suggest a friend of mine who lives in London, England, and is a former soccer pro (footballer)? He, too, is an advocate. Tony Kelly. He released his second book titled “Red Card: A Bet You Can Win,” and he shares his life with addicted gambling, loss, and he was sports betting and lost everything. I’d be happy to connect you to Tony as a mentor if you feel more comfortable talking with another “GUY”… He has a non-profit org here>>> https://redcardgambling.org/about/, and you can learn where and how to get his book as well. He would be happy to Zoom or facetime with you for more support. I know he’d be happy to help!
Cat (My Email: lyonmedia@aol.com
I hear you LOUD and CLEAR… Been there and done that! From your little profile photo, I’ll assume you are into ‘sports bets?’
That’s just the “preference,” as the disease of addiction has many faces—gambling, drugs, alcohol, porn, etc.
I am not trying to scare anyone or YOU; I advocate and mentor many from this disease, and I never “sugar coat” this addiction or recovery. My 2nd relapse resulted in my 2nd failed suicide attempt; I think my Higher Power (God) was trying to tell me something. He told me I had a higher purpose in my life. Some detours can be examples of when losing control over gambling? We can never get it back, no matter how much time has passed. It is a one-way ride to NOWHERE, pile up debt again, and has opened the door to all those cravings, urges triggers, and insanity floods back into our life.
I tell my friends I mentor, “WHAT has happened within your life that could cause you to go back out?”
It will often lead you to the root or underlying issue, to the WHY you went back out and gambled.
Could it be unfinished recovery work? Falling back into “Old Habits and Behaviours?” A life event? Any disappointments?
You may find the answer and work on it if you think about it. Your life is worth way more than gambling. Stick around this site for a while, and you’ll begin to be supported by many amazing people here. It’s a safe place to be open and transparent without being judged. Your not alone, and please check out the resources listed here.
Just never give up…
Cat
Cat,
Thank you for the response.
I don’t even know how this photo uploaded. Which I didn’t do on my own. But used it prior.
Yes sports gambling is my problem that I fell back into.
I personally know better, but this is something that I can’t get past. It’s been four very good years in between. Months ago finally had my life together in such a positive manner, but out of nowhere in September / October started to fall into this rabbit hole & affecting those around me. Ruining relationships. Causing myself to be so unhealthy. Rarely eat, don’t fully sleep.
You mentioned suicide attempt. I’ve googled that this week. But something I can’t come to do. I absolutely do need support or having conversations currently to get over this.
Thank you
Again, I fully understand. Please feel free to email me anytime. Are you in the USA? Or a different country. May I suggest a friend of mine who lives in London, England, and is a former soccer pro (footballer)? He, too, is an advocate. Tony Kelly. He released his second book titled “Red Card: A Bet You Can Win,” and he shares his life with addicted gambling, loss, and he was sports betting and lost everything. I’d be happy to connect you to Tony as a mentor if you feel more comfortable talking with another “GUY”… He has a non-profit org here>>> https://redcardgambling.org/about/, and you can learn where and how to get his book as well. He would be happy to Zoom or facetime with you for more support. I know he’d be happy to help!
Cat (My Email: lyonmedia@aol.com