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Hello all,
I have always loved playing poker online the past 5 years for fun with small amounts of money. Recently I started playing online continuing to have fun but then one night after losing a few hundred I deposit what I lost and played blackjack in a self destructive but came out big. I withdraw but then continued to play. Ended up maxing out my card that night. The next night a different card. To the point now I had to take a loan. My family, job, life is in a great position I’m engaged to a wonderful person but I don’t know why I keep gambling. I am scared of myself losing so much more. I have a horrible feeling inside. Can’t sleep much anymore, I had to post online because no one in my life knows this problem. I am a strong person but I’m so weak for the thrill of thinking I can win big and get that back. How do you just fill the void take the loss and stop doing it.