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Good evening everyone first off for me to God be the glory!! I try and post something every day about what’s going on with me. It’s important to me because it keeps me focused. I am dealing with a little sadness and anxiety. Sadness because I miss my mom who passed away in 2005 and anxiety because I have to go home for the weekend. I’m not sure exactly what to expect but I can’t hide what’s going on with me any longer. Dealing with these feelings is harder because I choose not to have a drink or find a slot machine to sit at. I want someone else’s happiness to depend on me while I’m miserable. I can say this, I’m not in this alone and for that I’m grateful. To the prayer warriors in this group please pray for me to have courage to face whatever I must.
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Hello Eva,
Do be careful, you need to keep your mind clear and focused on your own goal, do not confuse the issue with your partner with your recovery or even worse use it as an excuse to relapse.
The only thing we have control over is ourselves, not others. If your partner chooses to continue with his habit that is his choice and you have to respect that but it doesn’t mean that you have to join him. Hopefully when he sees you as gamble free he may well want to follow your lead.
Mozzie55 thank you for pointing that out to me you’re absolutely right. I need to stay focused on me and my goals. I sat and went through my bank account and started adding up all I could physically see that went on gambling and I must say, I was truly overwhelmed especially when I got the $6000 mark and this was in 3 months time. I don’t want to go back to that. Thank you mozzie55 this is a humbling experience and I’m just glad there are folks here who do actually care.
We have all been where you are right now, the good news is that as you lift yourself out of the ‘fog of addiction’ life does become a whole lot easier. Everything in life is as easy or as difficult as we want to make it. If you can view your urges as a sign of your healing instead of a driving force that persists, you will find your recovery more tolerable.
There is nothing to be gained by beating yourself up over what has gone before, by all means reflect on it as a reminder but forgiving yourself is also an important part of the healing process.