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Hi every one, I decided to start to sharing in here with the hope of helping some one and also to document my history. I am in the process of recovery I started gambling 5 years ago and I never though some one can get addicted to this it seems so innocent and I hate the day my ex husband convinced me on learning how to play the slot machines I was to the point where all I was thinking was gambling to get my money back and fill up the loneliness I was feeling witch make my life full of economic problems and troubles loosing money and time with my kids witch I adore until I got divorce, one day I decide to take one moment at the time and set small goals and write in my calendar when I fall and how much I loose and what is the feelings and problems I get afterwards and what is causing to my life every time I fall. and so far I started to make a goal 5 years ago first goal to stop for a week then when accomplish I stop for a moth then make a goal to stop for 3 moths and is been 2 years I been trying to stop for a full year but I been having downfalls and the most I been able to stop is 9moths but I write every fall in my calendar and all information possible like how much I loose, what I feel, what is causing to me etc. and I write this to help me to keep trying to stop and get better. I believe in my self and I have decide never to stop believing in my self and loving my self and to keep telling my self this will pass some day because everything gets better with faith. I can do this. You can do this.