Well I did it again I relapsed. I am so posses with myself. I had a good two months, and fucked it all up. I thought I can control this. And sure as shit i didn’t. I dont know about y’all. But I know my compulsive gambling,comes from my OCD. Its the compulsion part of my obsessive. Its when I feel bored or happy that I do this. Then my brain says hey dummy gamble 60 bicks and walk away. And guess what I don’t. I gambled 500 tonight. I become a mindless drone. Now I got to be creative with my money again till next payday. Which causes me to obsess over everything I spend till next paycheck. Which is not good for me trying to get my OCD on track. It invades my every thought now. Fuccccccck. Anways, I am here just ranting. Thoughts?