June 6, 2018 at 7:52 pm #9892
Thank you everyone for your replies it’s comforting to know I’m not alone. I have 3 weeks to go until my next payday and I have £3 in my bank account. Nobody I know has this problem or would come close to understanding. The worst thing to happen to me was when I won big, talking like £5000 wins from slots, I felt on top of the world and am constantly chasing that euphoria. Needless to say I lost my winnings in the past rapidly with the greed to win more. I’m constantly chasing ‘just one more’ big win as a remedy to all but I’m just plunging yet further into debt and despair. It’s hard to keep the facade that everything is fine with my family and friends when I cannot explain why I have no money to live 2 hours after getting paid…because of my shame im having to lie all the time, this gambling has turned me into a vile person. As I have no money at all I feel this is the right time to self exclude from the sites so this is going to be the first step, it’s just a very bitter pill to swallow the magnitude of what I’ve done over the years and there’s going to be no way of getting the money back, but this addiction is no life. I read a quote that read ‘I cannot win because I cannot stop’ that’s especially true with me and that’s why it’s so dangerous, even if I do win, I just continue to persue more and lose every penny before I even withdraw to my bank account..
- This reply was modified 2 weeks ago by Lostinparadise.
June 6, 2018 at 7:04 am #9876
I’m also the same situation on you. One day I win then another day I lost everything. I almost sold all of my valuables thinking that I can use again the money to regain losses but I failed. Now I’m mentally sick and so ashamed of what happened. My credit score is also damage and I need to go to work for 3 weeks before the next payday. Now the only solution for me to have money is to sell my phone or pawn if this can be acceptable. As of the moment, I’m in the middle of a financial crisis and I can’t even tell this to my parents. I’m also ashamed of begging for money for my friends and colleagues, this is a mess and I don’t know what to do… Please help me or someone can reach me out. $100 can sustain my needs for the next 3 weeks. 🙁 ( markuportrata@gmaill. com )
June 5, 2018 at 12:26 pm #9850
Lostinparadise, you are not alone, we have all been there and done that. I have done the same. My breakthrough came when I felt the same as you, same problems existed as well as the same shame. You are not alone however it is a decision you need to make and then see it through. I decided the best thing to do was to tell my family about it and admit there is a problem. I used to also wait for my paycheck and then go waste it.This month i paid all my bills and decided i prefer having some money in my purse last month I had nothing for the whole month, being broke sucks. Decide on a plan of action and then forge ahead its the only way.
June 3, 2018 at 12:47 am #9785
Disconnect the online slots account. You HAVE TO believe the solution exists. You HAVE TO stop doing slots. Cold turkey. You need to look at this situation from a different perspective. You must stop this cycle. Imagine that good feeling you can have by saying goodbye to this situation. You can’t do this anymore. You are the problem. You are also the solution.
May 31, 2018 at 3:00 pm #9667
I am lost. I have managed to lose my entire salary one again in a couple of hours playing online slots. I have no money to get to work, get food or generally live. Why have I done this to myself? I’m in almost 30k of debt and I’m only 27, I can’t bear the lies anymore or what this is doing to my family, I’m scared. My credit is shot to pieces due to taking out payday loans for gambling and I have no more avenues left to get money and I have no friends or family to turn to. I can’t survive the month I’m ashamed of myself and feel physically sick. I really want this to be the turning point but I have said this before and then as soon as I get my wages, I cannot stop myself. I want this demon plaguing my life gone forever. I’m scared to talk to my mum because it will break her heart what I have done, please somebody be so kind as to give me advise?
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