Hello all, I am heading into my second month of recovery. I have only joined this forum and come on here every few days.The last time I lost I really felt terrible and that became my turning point. I have a long road ahead however i have managed to pay all my crucial bills this last month end and heading halfway to the next one. For the first time in many years I am not thinking of excuses when those phone calls come in after month end. I am actually able to make payment arrangements and sticking to them.It will take many years to fix my mistakes and the amount of money I have wasted in the past.I cannot go back and change the past. I need to move forward and learn from those bad decisions I made. The urge to go gamble still pops its head up every couple of days. However I am making new habits and it feels good to have some money in my purse for a change. One of my new habits is stopping off for a cappuchino every second day on my way to work. I am doing the little things in life one forgets about and deriving joy from that. So my message is one of encouragement to those out there. It can be done by taking it one day at a time. Thats all we need to focus on one day at a time. Each day we say no to gambling is a day further into recovery. I hope I can and will continue on this path as it feels way better than the alternative. Thank you to all those helping me along on my journey. I find a great strength in this group and the people i chat to….