January 15, 2018 at 9:12 am #5886
Glad you are here and suggest you check in once a day and if no one is in chat posted how things are going and how
you are feeling. Also just want to share something I heard about suicide. ” Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem” You work on not gambling One Day At A Time and the financial issues will go away but you need to see in you can find some counseling and some GA meetings. If you are interested I send out two daily recovery related emails to start the day off. If you are interested in trying them please send me an email and I will add you to the group. email@example.com
Wish you well and hope you keep coming back.
Ken L YBIR
January 12, 2018 at 3:34 pm #5882
First sorry for my English.
My story is started 2 years ago when I get sickness(STD)(doctor say I am fine but this other topic) lead to anxiety to depression etc.
Until when day friends ask me if I want to go casino that time I thought Casino something imaginary not really exist. I was so afraid I saw my friend winning in Blackjack I was saying take the money go home go go I haven’t gambled that day.
A week later other friend ask about the casino he told why we won’t try! so we tried we ended up losing 100 euro (50 ) each
then I started to go alone from time to time I need up losing about 500-600 Euro and I suspended my self from entering the cassino (and this just the beginning of the story).
The start :
I stop gambling for 6 month until new cassino open, I went to play with 10 Euro the worest thing can happen I WON 400.
days after days with some losing and some winning.
after I finally got a new job with good salary
for last 4 month I gambled all my salaries I lied to my family one and tell them the truth one
I gambled away my debt(credit) grocery money rent my dentist money in total(losses about 5000-6000 Euro), what I sick person do that.
Now I only have 30 Euro my next salary in about 27 days I am behind my rent.
I have no family (wife – kids-gf..etc), no close friend I am a foreigner in the country where I live I don’t speak the language much my parents live in my home country.
I feel my existing in life is just to be sad and depressed I thought about suicide a lot. I am so coward to this.
I know deep inside that there is no one to love me or to help me or any day will be good
living with anxiety casino was a place for me to forget it and ended worst and worst
if any one thing can help me please do
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