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I have struggled with progressive compulsive ( and it can be very progressive) gambling for over 16 years when i attended my first GA meeting. Periods of abstinence but as usual forgetting psain, all nighters, credit cards etc. and feeling thid timre i will have some control. Last Septe,mber was m,aybe one of my most destructive gambling binges ever. I banned myself from all casinos in British Columbia (max here) best thing I could ever dosince I only play slots. But then my landlord next day informed me his son wantewd to move ihn to the suite which he has a legal right to with notice and free m onths rent to move. I told he we have to talk and explained my addiction having being a tenant for over 14 years and cant afford to move. We did come up with a compromise where I pay almost double but still under market, Vancouver has highest rents in all of Canada. Not working at the moment and progress has been slow but definite progress. I have slowly but surely gotten rid of a large amount of “stuff” cluttering my surroundings and mind. Still more to go. So glad I am banned as there were moments when again wanting to avoid responsibilities for a few hours of gambling crossed my mind. For me telling my landlord was huge, denyoing the shame guilt society still may make us feel and have hope I AM doing the right thing . I may not have the answers to all my problems but beleive there is a higher power than can and wont abandon me. I may not get what i want luckily but my journey is becoming honest and my self esteem has improved