• SunnyW posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 3 days ago

    Maybe deal with getting the facts on your health issue first. Fear and not knowing is scary enough. Please focus on you. This is a response and reaction to a fear. Gambling can numb that for awhile and then kick you hard when you see how much money and time gone. All the best to you.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    Yes I think letting others know especially family has a way of making us more accountable and focused to stop.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    Reaching out and coming to terms is brave. You are halfway there now. We have all messed up at some point, and just salvage what we can and step up and continue to learn and adjust our lives. All the best to you.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    Process what just happened, and then start over building your money back up. I’d usually feel horrified, angry, or disbelief. It really sucks to lose it all. I’ve lost pay checks and wait for the next payday, sacrifice bills, food or a vacation. If you can find ways to put aside some $$ money in an account that you can’t touch

  • SunnyW posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 months, 1 weeks ago

    Omg I did it again. Went a week and decided to take a couple hundred and go try. Hit a nice one, then put it back!! Why do I keep doing this? I’m sick about it. I was on a time limit so thankfully I left and didn’t stay to put more into those slots. Now I have to stretch afew hundred dollars to payday. I am determined not to go back. I’m tired…[Read more]

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 weeks ago

    I started focusing on tasks to do like baking, purging old things and cleaning out cupboards and closets. It felt like I was getting my home and mind back in order and simplicity. It certainly brought a feeling satisfaction. Also planning your day out with things you can do helps.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 weeks ago

    Not alone! Most of us have spent it all and live pay cheque to pay cheque not paying bills on time, etc. we understand the patterns and the desperation and angst of this crazy ride. Day 1 start. All the best and more determination to you and those resolving to quit this.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 weeks ago

    Now I feel like going to the casino! But I won’t, just give myself a moment to let it pass. But I do notice when I get anxious or frustrated, that thought pops up. So awareness is #1

  • SunnyW posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 1 weeks ago

    This chat site is very minimal and not used very much, and many stories are over 3 years old. I was hoping for a vibrant and chatty site with lots of interaction. I’m not feeling it here.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 weeks ago

    Are you permanently self excluded? I did for a couple of years and went on the occasional trip stateside maybe 2-3 times a year. I sure saved money doing that.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 weeks ago

    That is a very similar pattern for me also. Great expectations, then hit up the bank machine, from different accounts to spread it out or make it look not as bad as it is. I’m not an everyday gambler more like a payday gambler and a couple days in between. But the binges I do, would make up for being everyday. So we admit we have a problem and i…[Read more]

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 weeks ago

    I used to hike and trail walk everyday. It was a high and I felt like I couldn’t miss a day. Very healthy time of my life. I’m much older now and would like to start again slowly. My health has declined recently.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 weeks ago

    About day 7 or 8 for me. When I had an urge to go I started baking and made 2 lovely meals. My trick is to sit with it for at least few minutes until it passes. Then do it again. Have to verbally say to myself, not a good idea, save your $$$

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 weeks ago

    That’s a pretty good run of 10 years! It’s a relapse and you dust yourself off and ride again. No shame. You will be back on track. I know of these disasters but you get through them.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    That is a great choice and planning for success! You know you, and taking safeguards is wise! Continued strength and persevere!

  • SunnyW posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    I go to the casino about 3-4x a month, and if I get behind I start chasing. Then it’s game over. Leaving broke and feeling terrible. It used to be for fun and entertainment. But my bets increased and then winning some jackpots made it all seem worth it. No way. Time to take a long break from this and find new healthier habits. It’s hard work.

    • I feel terrible afterwards too.

    • Recovery is a long and lifetime process. Ever tried searching for ‘good’ dopamine releasing activities? Like rock climbing or hiking

    • I used to hike and trail walk everyday. It was a high and I felt like I couldn’t miss a day. Very healthy time of my life. I’m much older now and would like to start again slowly. My health has declined recently.

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    Be kind to yourself! Don’t be so hard on yourself. Gambling brings up all kinds of emotions , especially the stock bottom moments. Hang in there. You’ve done the hardest part now and reached out. Congrats! One day at a time, and some days will feel very empowered and some days not so much. Let those pass and all the best! We can stop the mad…[Read more]

  • SunnyW posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    So this is a change. I had a feeling or urge to go down to the casino. But I let it pass, listened to a podcast, went outside. And envisioned driving back broke and sad! lol. So here I am and I’m feeling pretty good about my latest choice. I had to block my online site because it is just too easy to access and spend. Plus I had some major bill t…[Read more]

  • SunnyW posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    Hi everyone. So I gambled m away my last 2 paycheques. I always pay my bills so that’s good. I will have some left over and it’s like I just can’t keep money in the bank! I will take a few days, get restless or bored and think to myself oh just $300 and see what happens. Maybe turn it into $1000. Of course that rarely happens. Then I’m driving…[Read more]

  • SunnyW posted a new activity comment 6 months ago

    Hang in there! It sounds like you are in a state and this too shall pass. Life is hard and beautiful. I can resonate with the self loathing. If it helps any, I’ve learned a lot in counselling and CBT and can share some insight. The toughest part of all this madness of gambling and any other stress is our thoughts and learning how to get curious w…[Read more]

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