pearlized

pearlized posted an update 5 years, 7 months ago

My gambling has caused me to be continue drowning in a self made ocean of misery.
I have locked myrlf up in my own prison.
Today I will let the Lord guide me to a place of hope and compassion because I know he cares for me and LOVES ME UNCONDITIONALLY
pearlized posted a new activity comment 5 years, 7 months ago

Congratulations
Hope you are still clean

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- lilly replied 5 years, 7 months ago
  
  good morning pearlized, yes I still am-Sept 18 will be 5 years clean time
pearlized posted an update 5 years, 7 months ago

I am at the plasma center. I am so broke. I wait here hours just for $20. I lose this much in less than 5 minutes on a slot machine
pearlized posted a new activity comment 5 years, 7 months ago

It is funny how we try to pretend we don’t have a problem when we are at the Casino losing every cent.
The casino employees know you and they try not look like they feel sorry for you, although they do.

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pearlized posted a new activity comment 5 years, 7 months ago

You have come to the right place. We are all here to hep each other. Before and after you decide to gamble enter chat and say something. Anything. I will do the same because I know that here people understand what I am going through.

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pearlized posted an update 5 years, 7 months ago

To the person that said they “lost every thing today”. I am so sorry for your loss. I have done things that I never imagined I would do. I spent my mother’s money. Which means I stole from my elderly mom. Yes I am ashamed and I try to hide what I have done.
I have let my kids down over and over until they have lost total faith in me.
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pearlized posted a new activity comment 5 years, 7 months ago

I have been doing the same thing. I leave broke every time

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pearlized posted a new activity comment 5 years, 7 months ago

It is scary

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pearlized posted a new activity comment 5 years, 7 months ago

I’m game. I need someone to talk to that can relate to wanting to stop but instead rationalizing with yourself that you can control your spending and get lucky

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pearlized posted an update 5 years, 7 months ago

Most people dont understand that gambling can become an addiction. They say I am too smart to be addicted. They don’t realize that intelligence has nothing to do with addiction.
One of my daughters treated me like a crackhead when I stayed with her.
I was so humiliated and hurt.
pearlized posted an update 5 years, 7 months ago

I have been struggling for 4 years with my addiction
pearlized became a registered member 5 years, 7 months ago

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