• lisa posted a new activity comment 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    I’m thinking about self exclusion. I have zero control once I start gambling. I can feel my brain chemistry changing. It’s actually quite scary. I’m in control of everything else in my life. I feel that I’m in too deep to stop. I have to recoup all the money that is lost. I get so much mail to entice me to go down there.

    • Don’t think about getting your money back you can’t just self exclude and listen to serenity’s advice. Counselling, groups and hobbies other than gambling

    • Hi Lisa
      It is scary what gambling can do to a person.
      I’m still not sure why during gambling reason goes out the door. Possibly part of it is desperation to have our money back. It’s gone but you can make more and use it to live and pay bills down.
      I’m still paying for my gambling actions. And will be for a time. But there will be a day that…[Read more]

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    How do you overcome gambling addiction. It’s such an insidious disease. How can something that is suppose to be entertaining turn out to be so devastating. Why is gambling legal if so many lives are ruined by it.I wish I never step foot even for one second in a casino. I wish I can take back that first day and rewind my life. I would probably h…[Read more]

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    This disease is a silent killer. I am so stressed out. I’ve done it again. As soon as I get money, I spend it up. Just got my taxes and paycheck. Spent over 2000 dollars in three days. I hate myself for this. Back to Guilt, sleepless nights, and worry. How can I overcome this. I want my life back.

    • Hi Lisa
      I can identify with you. Not that long ago I had little to no control when to stop gambling. I’d win some money then lose a lot more because I’d keep playing. Like a yo-yo until the string was broken.
      The only thing at first when I knew I should stop was banning myself. Self exclusion.
      That helped a lot I had a sense of freedom and pea…[Read more]

      • I’m thinking about self exclusion. I have zero control once I start gambling. I can feel my brain chemistry changing. It’s actually quite scary. I’m in control of everything else in my life. I feel that I’m in too deep to stop. I have to recoup all the money that is lost. I get so much mail to entice me to go down there.

        • Don’t think about getting your money back you can’t just self exclude and listen to serenity’s advice. Counselling, groups and hobbies other than gambling

        • Hi Lisa
          It is scary what gambling can do to a person.
          I’m still not sure why during gambling reason goes out the door. Possibly part of it is desperation to have our money back. It’s gone but you can make more and use it to live and pay bills down.
          I’m still paying for my gambling actions. And will be for a time. But there will be a day that…[Read more]

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Free play is just a trap to keep you coming back. I never win on my free play no matter how much they give me. I no longer want mail or perks from the casino. It all just leads to disaster!!

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    Please don’t gamble. It will creep up and destroy your life. It will hurt the people you love as well. It’s not worth it to gamble.

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 8 months ago

    I am in the same situation Stepann. I’ll do fine for a while then temptation creeps in. I guess the key is too resist temptation. It’s difficult because we always think that a win is coming. Then we end up broke and devastated. I have decided to remember how I feel now the next time that temptation to go comes creeping in again. I wish I can pla…[Read more]

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 8 months, 1 weeks ago

    This is day one for me. I’m done gambling. I’m throwing all of the mail and card away. It has brought me nothing but misery. They know exactly what their doing. Not worth the heartache, sleepless nights, and anxiety.

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 9 months ago

    Thank you Diamond. I just feel like there is no way out of this mess. Gambling is so deceptive because it seems so innocent until you get caught up in the establishment. I guess that’s how they make money, off compulsive gamblers. So sad.

    • kenl replied 9 months ago

      Believe it or not there is away out.
      Once you stop digging the hole and not place a bet One Day At A Time.
      When I crashed I was about to lose my family job and home.
      Today with support of others in recovery I haven’t placed a bet ODAAT in over 21 years.
      Celebrated 40 years with my partner own my home and I am retired.
      And believe me when I stopped…[Read more]

    • JOHN replied 9 months ago

      True, Lisa it is hard because we love to try to beat the casino at their game .At one time or another we had the idea we could beat them but there are many variables that are in the casinos favor.

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 9 months ago

    Thank you Ken for the words of encouragement. I can’t see any light at the end of the tunnel right now. Only darkness. I can’t believe what gambling can do to a person. On the outside it seems harmless, just entertainment. But that quickly changes.

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 9 months ago

    You are right Diamond about the cycle breaking me. I feel that I am way past recovery. I can’t believe I fell for their lies and deception. The casino sent me mail stating that I can win up to 100,00 dollars and I’m entered into a drawing. I go to the casino after work sometimes to unwind. Now I’m hitting rock bottom again. It’s the darkest…[Read more]

    • I’m so sorry you are hurting. Please don’t give up on yourself. It’s never too late to change. The dark place you are in is just trying to tell you that your way isn’t working. I’m rooting for you Lisa.

      • lisa replied 9 months ago

        Thank you Diamond. I just feel like there is no way out of this mess. Gambling is so deceptive because it seems so innocent until you get caught up in the establishment. I guess that’s how they make money, off compulsive gamblers. So sad.

        • kenl replied 9 months ago

          Believe it or not there is away out.
          Once you stop digging the hole and not place a bet One Day At A Time.
          When I crashed I was about to lose my family job and home.
          Today with support of others in recovery I haven’t placed a bet ODAAT in over 21 years.
          Celebrated 40 years with my partner own my home and I am retired.
          And believe me when I stopped…[Read more]

        • JOHN replied 9 months ago

          True, Lisa it is hard because we love to try to beat the casino at their game .At one time or another we had the idea we could beat them but there are many variables that are in the casinos favor.

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 9 months ago

    I can’t believe I am in this dark place again. The casino once again tricked me and stoled my money. These establishments don’t care who they hurt. I get all of these emails that I have comp rooms and free play only to end up broke after going down there. How do I stop this cycle. I stop for a few months and now I’m right back at it. How did I get…[Read more]

    • kenl replied 9 months ago

      Hi Lisa
      Sorry to hear that you had a relapse.
      Just wanted to share what worked for me when I crashed and was about to lose my family
      home and job and almost ended my life in 2002
      I joined gamblers anonymous and attended as many meetings as I could in my city.
      Also found some group counseling and banned myself from all casinos in my area
      and got…[Read more]

      • lisa replied 9 months ago

        Thank you Ken for the words of encouragement. I can’t see any light at the end of the tunnel right now. Only darkness. I can’t believe what gambling can do to a person. On the outside it seems harmless, just entertainment. But that quickly changes.

    • This addiction will not go away on its own. What does your daily practice look like to keep gambling at bay? Ken L has described some great ones that work. If you don’t break the cycle, the cycle will break you. Wishing you much progress in your recovery.

      • lisa replied 9 months ago

        You are right Diamond about the cycle breaking me. I feel that I am way past recovery. I can’t believe I fell for their lies and deception. The casino sent me mail stating that I can win up to 100,00 dollars and I’m entered into a drawing. I go to the casino after work sometimes to unwind. Now I’m hitting rock bottom again. It’s the darkest…[Read more]

        • I’m so sorry you are hurting. Please don’t give up on yourself. It’s never too late to change. The dark place you are in is just trying to tell you that your way isn’t working. I’m rooting for you Lisa.

          • lisa replied 9 months ago

            Thank you Diamond. I just feel like there is no way out of this mess. Gambling is so deceptive because it seems so innocent until you get caught up in the establishment. I guess that’s how they make money, off compulsive gamblers. So sad.

            • kenl replied 9 months ago

              Believe it or not there is away out.
              Once you stop digging the hole and not place a bet One Day At A Time.
              When I crashed I was about to lose my family job and home.
              Today with support of others in recovery I haven’t placed a bet ODAAT in over 21 years.
              Celebrated 40 years with my partner own my home and I am retired.
              And believe me when I stopped…[Read more]

            • JOHN replied 9 months ago

              True, Lisa it is hard because we love to try to beat the casino at their game .At one time or another we had the idea we could beat them but there are many variables that are in the casinos favor.

    • DP replied 9 months ago

      Again…still…yes for me too…how do I keep ending up in the same place over and over again ..I swear I will stop…but I never do…I can’t seem to help myself…I have taken the credit card and dropped 10g in one night…it is a vicious cycle that never stops…

    • JOHN replied 9 months ago

      Don’t give up

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 1 years, 1 months ago

    How do you numb the pain of losing a family member? My only brother moved away from us and we are all so sad. I just want my brother back. So sad. I just want to gamble. Everytime I try to turn away from gambling, another devastating thing happens in my life.

    • Hi Lisa
      Maybe you can set up a schedule where you can do zoom meetings with your brother once a week.
      And we both know gambling isn’t going to make things better.
      Take care
      Ken L YBIR

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 1 years, 1 months ago

    I am completely devastated. My life will never be the same. Our family is so small and my brother and his family were close. I just gambled again because of depression and lost money. Losing hope.

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 1 years, 1 months ago

    He is moving over 20 hours away from me. I don’t have much family. It’s very small. My brother was always a strong support for me.

    • I’m sorry Lisa. I have a sister 2000 miles away. She’s been away for ever. We speak nearly every day on the phone. Sometimes twice a day. FaceTime works well also on facebook. I know it’s not the same as in person but a person can stay in touch. Hugs.

      • I am completely devastated. My life will never be the same. Our family is so small and my brother and his family were close. I just gambled again because of depression and lost money. Losing hope.

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 1 years, 1 months ago

    Gambling seems to numb the pain temporary. I’m so hurt that my brother would leave the family. I have a small family. I’m just devastated. I’m trying not to gamble.

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 1 years, 1 months ago

    I just found out that my brother is moving all the way across the country. I am so sad. I will never see him or my nieces and nephews again. All I want to do is gamble now. I was doing so well. Now I am so sad and depressed. This is a huge trigger to gamble. I’m trying real hard to resist temptation. I’m losing my family and I have nothing to lose now.

    • Lisa I get that way after an argument or when people slight me at work and of course, I feel worse after I gamble to try and recover from that. Hang in there Lisa

      • Gambling seems to numb the pain temporary. I’m so hurt that my brother would leave the family. I have a small family. I’m just devastated. I’m trying not to gamble.

    • I’m sorry Lisa is he moving someplace nice? You can visit hopefully.
      Hugs

      • He is moving over 20 hours away from me. I don’t have much family. It’s very small. My brother was always a strong support for me.

        • I’m sorry Lisa. I have a sister 2000 miles away. She’s been away for ever. We speak nearly every day on the phone. Sometimes twice a day. FaceTime works well also on facebook. I know it’s not the same as in person but a person can stay in touch. Hugs.

          • I am completely devastated. My life will never be the same. Our family is so small and my brother and his family were close. I just gambled again because of depression and lost money. Losing hope.

    • It is very difficult when we lose loved ones either by moving away or by passing.
      I have lost so my loved ones and am an addicted gambler. Wow, it so so addictive. The last few times I went I
      said I wont go back but did again and really screwed up my finances…….why, why why. What an addictive thing to do.
      It is a constant thought and…[Read more]

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 1 years, 1 months ago

    I don’t understand gambling addiction. How can one get addicted to a game that is depleting money. Or give back all of your winnings to a machine. I really don’t understand how the brain gets addicted. I can control everything else in my life. When it comes to gambling, I become a different person.

    • You are not alone, I am in the same boat as you. The comment about becoming a different person really touched the heart.

    • Gambling desensitizes a person of the value of money. I’m not sure how or why but it does.
      If a person was in the jungle and gathered a bag of food and then lost it. Common sense would tell you oh well I’ll just gather more.
      And you do and then you’d be on your merry way.
      Gambling same philosophy. I’ll just gather some more. It’s not possible…[Read more]

  • lisa posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 1 years, 4 months ago

    I’ve decided to replace gambling with healthier living! Focus on exercising and eating right. When I gamble I forget to eat and take care of myself. From this day forward I am focusing on self love. I’m worth it!

    • Awe that’s awesome Lisa what’s for dinner? There’s so many good recipe’s on line. I’m cooking baking more now also. Good food is truly the spice of life. Hugs

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 1 years, 4 months ago

    Yes Sheila, I totally hate gambling. I had a wake up call and realize that I am heading for disaster if I don’t stop doing this. It’s the worst addiction and I totally hate myself for doing it. Time to get back on track and save myself as well as my family. I’m worth it.

  • lisa posted a new activity comment 1 years, 4 months ago

    I was thinking bankruptcy because my credit is already poor. It’s like I filed for bankruptcy anyway. I owe so much money including taking out payday loans.

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