• kc1983 posted an update 5 years, 5 months ago

    Day 2- went to my first G.A. meeting. This was the real first step I needed. It was hard to admit to myself that this is something I cannot beat on my own. Reading my book for the second time today. Just today. One day at a time. Prayers to all of us on our journey to recovering from this addiction.

  • kc1983 posted a new activity comment 5 years, 5 months ago

    It is rough. I am only on day 1 if not gambling. I went to the G.A. site and lifted a meeting near me and will be attending tomorrow. It’s a scary feeling to go out into the world and expose my addiction with gambling but I have come to the point where I know for a fact that it’s impossible to stop on my own because gambling remains “my secre…[Read more]

  • kc1983 posted a new activity comment 5 years, 5 months ago

    Same thing with me. I could win or even hit a small jackpot after only putting in $40-$100 and I would just keep playing upping my bet to the max bet. I’d lose it all and just try to figure out why I couldn’t stop when I was ahead. So today is Day 1 for me. I am completely behind on everything and stressed out beyond belief but I have to start som…[Read more]

    • I told one person I could trust most. They were without judgement. I couldn’t do face to face meetings either. I suggest getting rid of your cc card and debit cards or any access to cash or if you gamble online block those sites. Go shopping instead. Go one day. Reward yourself with something else that you like. Same as day 2 and so forth. A…[Read more]

  • kc1983 posted a new activity comment 5 years, 5 months ago

    Hello,
    I wanted to ask how to go about being apart of the online meetings

  • kc1983 posted an update 5 years, 5 months ago

    Good evening to all of you. I realized years ago that gambling had become an addiction. I always managed to “get by” somehow but this year has been my demise. I started to go to the casino a lot more as I tend to relate it to the stresses in my life. However, it is a blatant addiction. I go and spend everything then I sit and feel complete dis…[Read more]

    • I am in exact same position… Have been gambling and in denied for years that it’s no big deal until last weekend, I went on 72 hrs binged and lost $5k trying to proof if Max bet is the way to make money playing slots! What a stupid idea… You just lost more and quickly! No matter how much I won, I will put it back into the machine anyway so at…[Read more]

      • Same thing with me. I could win or even hit a small jackpot after only putting in $40-$100 and I would just keep playing upping my bet to the max bet. I’d lose it all and just try to figure out why I couldn’t stop when I was ahead. So today is Day 1 for me. I am completely behind on everything and stressed out beyond belief but I have to start som…[Read more]

        • I told one person I could trust most. They were without judgement. I couldn’t do face to face meetings either. I suggest getting rid of your cc card and debit cards or any access to cash or if you gamble online block those sites. Go shopping instead. Go one day. Reward yourself with something else that you like. Same as day 2 and so forth. A…[Read more]

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