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I have finally admitted to myself I have a problem. I guess it took hitting rock bottom to admit it. I wildly miscalculated a few deposits because I was using ACH method and doing multiple deposits a day. I didn’t keep track the way I thought I did. Now I’m being contacted by an online casino regarding a few chargebacks made on my behalf by my bank. I was completely irresponsible and kept telling myself that I’d win it back. I did not. Now my mental health is raining trying to figure out how I’m going to pay thousands of dollars that I don’t have back. I started reading about others situations on Reddit and was promptly met with tons of people bashing the people posting. I understand I am an adult and that I caused this problem myself. I take full responsibility. But that doesn’t help the fact that I feel royally fucked. A week ago everything was looking amazing. I don’t know what the fuck happened. I have enough to pay the casino back but I will literally be left with nothing. I escaped an abusive relationship and am currently paying for the house I have a mortgage on as well as the apartment I actually live in. It’s a complicated situation. But now I’m scared I will have to return home and honestly I’d rather die. I was so desperate to generate more money as quickly as possible to avoid the inevitable and now it’s all gone. Does anyone know of being able to make payment arrangements with the casino? The email they sent mentioned sending it to a debt collector. I’m basically scared shitless. Idk what to do. But I know what I’m NOT going to do is run to the casino with my last little bit of money and piss it away. I’m fucking done.