Activity – Cjg

Cjg posted an update in the group Community 1 months, 2 weeks ago

I’m back on this site after about almost a year. Haven’t been honest with myself and fell hard to online gambling/gaming. I’m getting to the point where when I lose, I start to slap myself multiple times really hard and it gets worse and worse the more that I lose. I think I’m going insane. I work so hard for my money only for it to just fizzle on these God forsaken online games. Today I just had ENOUGH! I’m literally getting sick of this endless cycle of depositing, playing and eventually losing only to do it allll over again! I hate the person staring back in the mirror!
- Scottyboy2715 replied 1 months, 1 weeks ago
  
  CJG I can really relate. It feels like it’s an endless ride that you can never get off. Everytime I think I have gotten momentum towards quitting, something will pull me back. I’m sending you good thoughts.
  - Mel replied 4 weeks, 1 days ago
    
    Can totally identify with you on that feeling I hate the person that stares back at me in the mirror.
- Wayne replied 1 months ago
  
  Thanks/ When I read this it reminds me of the seemeingly endless cycle.. loose control, loose all the money, feel anxiety , stress continually, stop gambling , go to ga meetings, gain confidence, feel better, stop going to ga meetings, forget the bad experiences gambling , all nighters, bank problems, very high anxiety, ebentually sabgatoge thinking, just want to go to feel the “atmosphere”,
  , go to casino, then that one fatal moment, place money in the machine after which I have given up any control… repeat….