• Bernme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 3 months ago

    Good day Everyone! Today there is a piece missing inside me. I feel it and I am trying to recognize it for what it is. As I have no intention of gambling today, I feel I should try to fill that piece with something. Any ideas? Solitaire is not going to cut it today lol.

    • This morning I felt fed up and unmotivated so I watched funny videos on You Tube, funny outtakes of The Chase, that soon changed the duldrums and I got on with my work. Motivational videos work well also.

  • Bernme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 3 months ago

    Today I will focus on the glow inside me that is starting to grow and let it make me feel good about myself. I have been here before. I need to beware that little glow does not numb the pain completely. I have seen this draw me back to “ok, I’m alright, maybe just a little”. No, no, no. I will not let it draw me in.

  • Bernme posted a new activity comment 3 years, 3 months ago

    Hi, I am a compulsive gambler and I hurt my family financially. Your husband is not thinking with a clear mind. I can only assume his intension was to help the family not hurt them. I am not belittling what he did at all. I am just giving you a glance from this side of the addiction. As the money is critical, the addiction is destroying him…[Read more]

  • Bernme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 3 months ago

    My share today is a good mistake. Last week there was only enough money in my account for a car payment. I stopped gambling that moment. The car payment did not go through. I thought ok, I must have my weeks mixed up. I did not touch that money since. This morning I woke up to the payment going through and almost cried to think where I would…[Read more]

  • Bernme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 3 months ago

    I am feeling a little proud of myself this morning. Haven’t had that feeling in awhile. I was able to successfully delete my online gambling account so I cannot reactivate. Baby step but it felt good. All the best to everyone!

  • Bernme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 3 months ago

    I got through a difficult night last night. Working on day 5 and I think I will NOT gamble today. Have a good one and keep looking forward.

    • Day 5 for me, too. Hang in there my friend. You have come too far to start over. That is what I keep telling myself. I don’t want to restart the recovery process.

  • Bernme posted a new activity comment 3 years, 3 months ago

    Just you being here shows you can recover. You have taken a big step. Stay on this site until you feel strong enough to tell your family. Trust me I have only been chatting for 2 days and the 4 days I have clean have already given me a littler clearer mind.

  • Bernme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 3 months ago

    Today is a good day! I hope to keep this positive out look for 2021 strong. I know I will struggle and require an ear to vent to and a voice of encouragement. For that I will be on this site daily and not forget or let down my guard to my addiction.

  • Bernme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 3 months ago

    Struggling to not request the online gambling app to reactivate my account. Anyone know how to block yourself from doing that?

  • Bernme posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 3 months ago

    Hi! I am new to the web site. COVID19 has kept me away from meetings. It has also introduced me to on line gambling. I am looking for another outlet to keep me away from bad habits.