• anjholl posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Thank you gabby1234

  • anjholl posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Thank you for those words. I’m really trying and having this forum and all of you talking me through this tough day helps.

    • You’re welcome. Just take one day at a time…don’t think or worry about tomorrow just live in the moment; that really does help.

  • anjholl posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Thank you. I normally turn to my best friend when I need someone to talk to but she’s going through some heath scares so I don’t want to bring my burdens to her but I probably should.

  • anjholl posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Thank you I’m trying really hard not to think/feel this way

    • I know I have felt that way many times. However; you have to be strong you will be fine, we will be fine it’s still a struggle for me too. My test will come on Friday and Saturday when I have nothing to do and the thoughts of the casino start creeping into my mind. I need strength to get me through this.

  • anjholl posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    I actually spoke the words out loud to my husband just a few minutes ago and he told me that he’d rather have me over everything else. I hate that I have the thought because death has always been my biggest fear ever so for me to feel this way is crazy and I know that. I just hate myself for what I’ve done.

  • anjholl posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    I can’t stop with online gambling. My husband is going through cancer treatment and our house is being foreclosed on. I cancelled my cards and deleted my online accounts. I have to figure out how to get 8k so I don’t loose my house on the 11th I’ve gone a week without gambling but the desire to gamble is so strong. I’m worth more dead then alive a…[Read more]

    • I felt the same way several years ago ((( Anjholl ))) a knock on the family cottage door brought me back to reality and I called GA and found some counseling and slowly put my life back together. Also learned that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.If you keep having those thoughts reach out to someone for help. As the father…[Read more]

      • I actually spoke the words out loud to my husband just a few minutes ago and he told me that he’d rather have me over everything else. I hate that I have the thought because death has always been my biggest fear ever so for me to feel this way is crazy and I know that. I just hate myself for what I’ve done.

    • There is hope ending your life will not solve their problems, just think of the pain you will leave them feeling and the psychological problems the both of them will endure due to your death. I don’t have all of the answers hell I don’t have any answers but I know that killing yourself is not the answer.

      • Thank you I’m trying really hard not to think/feel this way

        • I know I have felt that way many times. However; you have to be strong you will be fine, we will be fine it’s still a struggle for me too. My test will come on Friday and Saturday when I have nothing to do and the thoughts of the casino start creeping into my mind. I need strength to get me through this.

    • I feel you. I’m sorry. Please remember that asking for help is a sign of strength. Be strong. You will do your family more damage if you are not here. Get a sponsor. A friend. Someone who can lift you up. Hugs.

    • This much I know, the desire to not gamble will lessen as time goes on with the proper support. I dont see how you can do this without the help and support of others. G.A. a therapists and this forum will all help and I do all three and it is working. My last casino/slot experience was 11/10…its only been 6 weeks and I am turning everything…[Read more]

      • Thank you for those words. I’m really trying and having this forum and all of you talking me through this tough day helps.

        • You’re welcome. Just take one day at a time…don’t think or worry about tomorrow just live in the moment; that really does help.

  • anjholl posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    Thank you!

  • anjholl posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    Thank you for the words. I plan on calling them Monday morning.

  • anjholl posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 7 months ago

    I have an online gambling problem. I didn’t want to admit I did but I do. Today proved it to me, I denied things to my husband who was going through Stage 3 lung cancer treatment and while he was sick and not working I was gambling away all our money. Today we got a foreclosure notice from an attorney because I haven’t paid the mortgage in 7 mon…[Read more]

    • kenl replied 7 months ago

      Hi Anjholl
      I too almost lost my home due to my illness but once I admitted why I wasn’t making my house payments to the bank and I was
      to work out a plan with the bank and get caught up. I explained to them that I was getting counseling and attending GA meetings.
      During my 16 years in recovery I never missed a payment and this past Spring I paid…[Read more]

    • hi anjholl.just wanted to say,i did the same things as you,ill husband,he had no idea ,i did loose our house.and much more.
      What ever you do DO NOT tell the bank you have a gambling addiction .
      In my case my husband was placed in a carehome,he never had a clue i did what i did.
      Hugs your going down a road ive been .if we meet in chat one day i…[Read more]

    • Hi anjholl ,been where you were ,right down to the ill husband,missed mortgage payments.
      but i did loose our house.
      A word of warning ,in many and my case like ours,banks do not go so easy on gamblers.
      i would suggest you tell them anything ,but not that your a gambler.

    • I know how you feel I would go to the casino on Saturday when my husband would be working I felt so guilty I was there for hours but now I’m six weeks without gambling and he never knew I went to the casino

    • I am in the same boat. I have a major problem with gambling. I haven’t paid our mortgage and we received a foreclosure notice as well. I am still gambling and I feel terrible about it every day. I say I’m going to stop and I do for a few days and start again. I’m not a stupid person and I know it is ridiculous to put my family in this…[Read more]

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