My story? Well it started in 93 where I became addicted to Bingo within 3 months. It came upon me slowly, when I wanted to go out and just have a bit of fun and quiet time for myself. Sadly, I did not know how subtle this addiction would lead to my escape from all my problems. By three months into Bingo I realized I was hooked. I knew it, but I did not care . The first lie to myself and others I knew, but I continued. I denied what was happening. Honestly, I did not want to stop. Over four years of daily gambling, the money I had was gone. I had been involved in other areas in my life going to Al Anon years before, so I knew my focus was so intent on gambling and I knew I was addicted to the bet and needed help. And when all was spent, I knew there had to be Help for me , so I made the call. I called Gamblers Anonymous May of 1997. I went and was free of gambling for 2 years, but the bet lived in me yet. Well, I went back out. In fact, over the next five years I would go back out frequently. Come back in to GA . I considered myself a Binge Gambler in those years.
Finally, in 2002 with suffering time after time, the consequences of, blaming all circumstances on outside of me, I finally wanted a life and actually I had no one to blame anymore. I ran out of excuses. So I took responsibility for me. Finally, I stopped blaming my problems on others. I also attended retreats for spiritual guidance. What ever would help I went. Today, no matter what anyone does, it is not worth me self destructing in gambling of any kind. No matter what life event takes place, gambling is not the answer for an escape. The irony of it all, there is no escape, was no escape, just felt like it for a time. Today, I meet and greet what I need to do, sort through problems that are mine. Talking, sharing life’s issues with all. I have no secrets that once propelled me into the escape back in 1993. It is so much easier seeing it all now, but then I was so afraid ..to say..but then at that time I did not know where to start. That is parts of my story. Thank you for reading. Gams5.