• bobby posted an update 5 years, 7 months ago

    Because of gambling i am behind so many important bills. Because of gambling i am unable to join my family on holidays. And now beacuse i want to pay my bills any money i get i want to double and sort my life out but next day i end up giving back. Really whats the point then? If i wanted i could have cleared my bills in these 3 weeks. Luck was on my side but i end up giving all back beacuse i want to clear all my problems in a DAY. I have just lost my job. I got 2 kids and my wife works part time. Instead of making arrangements and start paying little by little i am doing opposite. I am truely fed up. This agression inside me, this buring feeling inside me is just killing me. I dont want to be known as loser. I want my wife and my kids to remember me as a hard working dad and husband. My kids know when i treat them well and give them money and they do ask me…dad how much you won. Its so pathetic and embrassing. But my debit is so much i cannot put my head straight. Rather then talking to the lenders i am trying so hard to win and pay them back. I am so pathetic:((((((
    I had to find this chat room and register so i can take all this out of my head. I want to breath and enjoy my life. This shit is taking me day by day. sigh

    • Thank you Tara. you reply meant a lot. Yes it is hell, a living hell and people do not understand. This is adiction beyond anybody imagination. I just want a simple life, like millions of other people. I want to live within my means and struggle and come home, enjoy my family life, struggle with stuff but look forward to overcome them. But choose easy way (Gamble). Actually it is the most destrucktive way. Nothing easy about it. Yes it feels the biggest buzz when you win but actually you just lost. You lost every month wage, you lost your bill money, you lost your kids food and for most you lost your time, your money, your energy. You are always a LOOSER when you GAMBLE. Its so easy for me you write all this down but tomorrow morning things will be different. I will be spending my time in bookies without money or whatever little money i got and praying for win so i can sort my life out. How sad i have made my LIFE…………………..