Activity – Lovelyt

Lovelyt posted an update in the group Community 1 years ago

Whelp where do I began ? This has been a rough week for me . I got news Sunday morning that my brother was shot 8x in NY I had to leave and make it there to him. So much on my mind so many thoughts running through my head smh. I made it to be there with him ! He’s alive thank god !! So I’ve been outta work no pay , got paid a real small check yesterday and all I could think about was chancing it so I can make it through the next 2 weeks. Plus I need to get back home , plus be able to help my brother if he needs me. Well of course my plan failed. I’m just so mad at myself because as much heartache as gambling brings me I still keep finding myself right back there smh. Really doesn’t make it any better cause the people around me (my mom and my boyfriend) also has gambling problems. Lord I just pray for the strength to kick this habit !! I have so many things I need to take care of , so many things 😢 why can’t I stop ?? Why can’t I stop ?? 🙁
- Serenity replied 1 years ago
  
  Lovelyt I’m sorry to hear of your brother being shot. That’s crazy. I hope he can heal quickly and there’s minimal damage for him.
  I’ve been nearly broke and taken a chance also in the past It’s pretty painful when it doesn’t pan out. I hear your words you want to stop. I do n’ t think it’s ever going to be easy to stop initially.
  Sometimes a person has to force it upon themselves.
  I totally understand how difficult it is.
  I wish there was an easy way. Hugs ❤️
- Kabobra replied 1 years ago
  
  First of all, im glad to hear that your brother survived. He must be a strong man. I think that strength probably runs in the family and you too, do have that strength to persevere. It sounds like you have 100 things going through your mind. Try your best to slow your thoughts down and focus on this moment. What choice can you make in this moment that will be beneficial to you? Coming on here was a good choice to reach out for support, and we are here for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
- Linglang replied 1 years ago
  
  Hi Lovely, same here. 😭 I can’t stop too. And it’s hurting my family. Because they are the ones getting the bills paid instead of me. I feel so bad. I’m so sorry to hear about your brother, but thank God he’s okay now. I try to stay positive, but still my mind is messing me up. I have already had countless attempt of ending my life. I pray everyday but the devil keeps going back. I am so traumatized with all my shit. I hope one day I can stop this habbit.