Activity – jrock4905

jrock4905 posted an update 5 years, 2 months ago

Well I just burned through 240 dollars in about 40 minutes and seriously feel sick. This isn’t the first time I’ve felt like this from spending to much on video slots; but it is the first time I’ve decided to talk about it. I’m lost and don’t know where to turn. I just got paid on Friday the 1st and I’ve spent 420.00 total. It may not sound like a lot but when my paycheck was just over 1100.00 for two weeks, 420 dollars is a lot to throw away. I’m going to lose what little I have before I know then I’ll really be screwed. I don’t know how to stop playing those stupid machines. Even when I’m winning I still lose. For example, about 3 weeks ago I put 10 bucks in and was up 330 off that same 10 and instead of listening to logic telling me I just made over 30 times of what I invested, I listened to greed and kept spinning until I reached zero. Who in their right mind does that?
- justagirl replied 5 years, 2 months ago
  
  I have done this same exact thing, it never mattered if I’m up or down. The only thing that seems to help me is keeping myself from going is keeping busy with mindless tasks. I try to preplan my days ahead of time so I am consistently busy. It is when I’m lonely, or bored that I find myself going.
  Like an addiction, the cycle has to be broken. There are withdrawal symptoms along the way like with anything else. The only thing you can do is persist. Remember 240$ isn’t a whole lot no, but 240$ a check given to a game, or sitting in your account week after week. Makes a world of a difference.
  I’ll be thinking of you, and I’m here if you need to talk. I know what you’re feeling all too well.
  Stay strong
  - jrock4905 replied 5 years, 2 months ago
    
    Thank you. I just don’t know what to do or where to turn, because even though I know it’s a bad decision to feed money to the machines, I do it anyway and when I walk out with 2 or 3 times less than what I started with a feeling of dread consumes me and it’s like I don’t even care. My car payment is 2 months behind and I’m barely keeping my rent paid. It’s sickening but it’s still not enough to stop me. People close to me have no idea what I’m going through because I’m too embarrassed to talk about it. I got my tax return on Feb. 6. Almost all of it was wasted on slot machines. The thought that I could win more money outweighed the thought of using the money I already had to get caught up on some bills. Being depressed doesn’t help either. Anyway I feel like I’m starting to ramble. I just have so much to say about this. Again thanks for reading and responding to my first post. I hope you are staying strong as well.
- loveland replied 5 years, 2 months ago
  
  Friend I been there as well! Been up hundreds after only using small amount to start! IDK why I can’t just walk away!