• justagirl posted an update 5 years, 1 month ago

    Hello everyone,
    I am new to the site and am reaching out to any kind individuals with sound sound advice.
    I just bought a new home in July, I had issues with the people living with me, they moved. The basement flooded. Things started falling apart.
    After the chaos subsided, my savings was drained in comparison to what it was. My credit cards were racked.
    I took my losses to a night at the casino, and to my misfortune, I won.
    It wasn’t much, maybe a few hundred dollars, and from then my life started to spiral.
    I started playing in hopes to get my financials back. I’ve never been a severely, addictive personality kindof person, but it took its hold on me.
    Once I wasn’t making back the money I lost from moving in, I started playing money to get back the money I lost from the money I lost.
    Writing this, I can’t help but kindof laugh at how irrational and silly it seems. I can’t believe something as simple as just stopping is something I cannot manage to do.
    10,000 later, I have lied. I’ve lied about where I’ve been going. Lied to family and friends. Lied about having to work, or being broke because of circumstances that have never happened, etc.
    I have a lot of pride, and have been too scared to ask for help from my loved ones. I’ve always been the type to want to fix things myself.
    I finally got a hold of the helpline this morning, and they have referred me here.
    Anyone, please. I need to stop, and need any support I can get from people who truly understand what it is like to be an addict. Please.
    Thank you to all