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So much has gone wrong for me lately with my work. I had a huge sale that I lined up in October of last year that looks like has backed out. They were supposed to take delivery this last week which is a loss of just over $30000. I will be really struggling to pay my bills. I’ve been staying away from gambling the last couple of months pretty good sheer self control.
Yesterday I decided to try a game which was a mistake. I spent money I can’t afford. I had two accounts open. I promised myself if I slip the accounts are gone I closed the two this morning. I felt like crying when I closed the one I had it for several years. I self excluded from it for three years. I did go back but more responsibly I’d say.
But no money spent on gambling is best. I have a sense of pride instead of shame not gambling.
So today I turn another page.
I think of everyone here often and I wish the best for all. One day at a time. I learn from my mistakes and move forward. I do feel regret but that’s not going to help me. I’ll brush that off and move forward.